Chapter 1
The Teacher
2025
He was simply called, "Teacher." He had been in that role for twenty-eight years before the Black Days. He was still a teacher of sorts, but now he set up apprenticeships for young men and women throughout the Alliance. He had been riding in a buggy for four hours down Modoc Point Road. He had stayed the night at the Williamson River Ranch, and his trip would amount to almost ten miles, a distance he expected to cover in just a little under five hours. Not bad he thought. I have returned to the nineteenth century, and I am traveling two miles an hour with Betsy. He had stopped at the checkpoint at Modoc Point Road and Highway 97 and passed on news to the two young guards. He daydreamed as he soaked up the sunshine of early spring. It was said that the basin had upwards of 300 days of sunshine, and at his age he welcomed every one. He had long sense blocked out the clickity-clack of the iron horseshoes on pavement followed by muted softness as they passed over drifting sand and grass. He knew that it was silly to drive down the right side of the road, but force of habit kept him between the shoulder and the centerline. Once in awhile he would deliberately cross to the other lane or ride the fading yellow divider line, but he would soon tire of his liberation. Besides it took more concentration to defy old conventions. He was more relaxed following the old ways, the old rules of the road.
Lulled by the rhythm of the horse, Andrew recalled the last young men that he had been responsible for when he had been an outdoor instructor in Montana. He remembered the trouble that they got into, and he decided that he would leave this portion of the story out, knowing that he would have young members listening to his story after dinner. He laughed out loud as he recalled the events. It was Sunday morning when he drove up to the cabin. He could hear Marvin yell to Scott, "Get out of the bathroom. The shit is about to hit the fan." Andrew remembered walking through the doorway and surveying the room. He had said nothing. It was a trick that he used in the classroom, along with his Queen Victoria stare. It worked in the classroom and it worked at that moment. Scott could not contain himself. The silence agitated him, and he was the first to speak. "Andrew, you've got to let us explain. You didn't even let us say anything when you brought us back here last night."
"Scott, all of you need to just be quiet and listen to what I have to say. Yeah, I know some of the problem wasn't your fault, but you guys placed yourself right in the path of trouble. I know you were defending yourself, but I also know that there is no greater fool than an eighteen year-old who has been drinking. You broke our rules, but more importantly all of you showed poor judgment. No, no, don't say anything. Let me be frank. For two years the owners have debated whether or not to shut the school down. They barely break even, and the liability insurance increased almost twenty-five percent this year alone. The only reason they have kept the program is that it is good PR, and they get to pitch their club membership and condominiums to your parents when they come to your graduation ceremony.
"Now, I have talked to one of the owners of Three Rivers Resorts this morning on the telephone, as well as the chief-of-police. The charges are going to be dropped for all parties involved, with the exception of one of the local kids who was booked for felony assault with a deadly weapon. You're lucky that no one was in possession of alcohol at the time of the arrest. The charges of public intoxication and participating in a civil brawl have been dropped. However, we have a local lady judge who is going to demand a letter of apology to the City of Hamilton, and she will be sending letters home to your parents by registered mail. Although, I am not going to send you home for breaking the contract, I've got to tell you that I am really disgusted with all of you."
"Scott, you've got your entire, God Damned life to drink, and yet you had to drink until you were shit faced and then start a near riot. You've got a problem, young man. I am here to tell you that you pose a real risk to the owners and a risk to me as well, because I am responsible for you. You are not eighteen. I'll need to talk to you in private after this meeting.
"Andrew, I know I screwed up again, and I'm not trying to piss you off, but didn't you ever drink at our age?" asked Scott.
"As a matter of fact - no! I never drank in high school until I finished up with my varsity sport in the fall of my senior year. I didn't give a shit that all my friends broke their letterman's contract on drinking. I didn't, and I sure as hell didn't think you guys would break your contract either.
"Ok, it's Sunday. Monday morning I will be back and we will continue with our planned float trip. But before we launch, I will be taking you to the post office. I'm leaving this slip of paper with you with the judge's name and the court address. You will write a letter of apology, all of you, to the City of Hamilton Fair Commissioners. And you will send a letter home to your parents explaining why you were in a fracas. I suggest that what you lack in honesty and candidness in your letters home, the police report will clarify and expand. Each of you will also write me a report of what happened. I want the who, what, where, how, when and why. Spare me the apologies and the moralizing, and most importantly, spare me the rationalizations or excuses for your rodeo rumble. No report and you can pack your bags. One last thing, your report will go in your fishing journal. Assigning a writing assignment almost brings tears to my eyes. I will expect some good writing. They won't be graded, boys. See you Monday."
Andrew recalled piecing the story together later. Apparently Marvin got up from his bunk and said, 'I can't believe that bullshit. Big, fucking deal. So we had a few beers and got in a fight. Fuck it. I'll pack my bags before I write a groveling letter of apology.'"
'He didn't say it had to be an apology. He said he wanted a report,' countered Brad.
'Fuck you,' said Marvin.
'No, fuck you, asshole. You and Scott were the ones who got us into this mess,' said Brad as he stood up and pointed his finger at Marvin. Marvin bolted across the room. He towered over Brad. With two long steps, he stood in arms reach of Brad.
'I noticed that you didn't turn down the beer Scott gave you. Did you!' He poked Brad in the chest and pursed his lips.
Wayne later told Andrew that he had stepped through the door while Marvin was ranting. Wayne was about five foot ten in height and was built heavily in the chest with a small waist. Because of his quiet personality and shy smile, he never presented himself as a man who could leap into action. But at that moment they all knew better having seen him in action the previous night. Marvin stepped back from Brad who had not given any ground. 'So, Marvin, now you're going to pick a fight with Brad, who already has a black eye and bruises all over his back because he stuck up for you. Way to go big man.'"
Marvin knew he was out of line. He knew he had been in the wrong and caused a lot of problems for the group the previous night. He didn't want to cross Wayne. Even though Wayne was only a few years older than the other boys, he was still somewhat of a mystery to them. He was supposed to be their chaperone when Andrew went home, but he spent a lot of the time ducking out on them during the evening and going to an old trailer that he stayed in that was parked in the woods behind the corrals. Each night he would tie up a couple dozen flies to sell to the local fly shops. Wayne had filled Andrew in on the action in his trailer the next day. Andrew could still see the old trailer and fly tying equipment spread across the counters and table.
"Yeah, Dan, I'm in trouble with Andrew thanks to you guys. I was in this program for two years when I was in high school, and both summers none of the groups did anything stupid like you guys. If it wasn't for Andrew knowing every outfitter in Western Montana, and the fact that I want to get my independent guide's license next year, I'd say the hell with you guys and walk. I'll tell you, as far as I am concerned, you broke the contract and you should be sent home. End of story. And another thing, clean this shit hole up. I know the maids who have been cleaning up after you each day. You're not at home where if you bend over somebody will wipe your ass."
Andrew smiled to himself recalling Wayne's version. They were spoiled boys. Before he had left the boys' cabin that night, he had asked Scott to join him outside where he learned the rest of the story. Scott had told him that they heard about the fair and rodeo and naturally wanted to go to town with Wayne, who apparently had a date. Andrew could still see Scott in his mind sitting on the porch as he told his account of the escapade.
"Come on, Wayne, we're not stupid," Scott said. "We've seen you with Cindy at dinner so we know you've probably got a date. Hey, just let us ride in the back of your truck," said Scott.
"No way. I don't even know what time we'll head back."
"So do what the dorm guys do if they are inside their room making out with some hot chick and they don't want their roommates barging in cooling the romance, leave a sign on the door, or in this case on your truck, and we'll hang back in the shadows," Marvin laughed.
Brad added, "Yeah, you can buy Cindy one of those helium balloons and tie it to your antenna."
"You guys are idiots. I am not going to make out in a dusty parking lot. Besides this is our first date," countered Wayne defensively.
"This is perfect," said Scott. "If you bring us along just for the ride in and the ride back, it will take the pressure off both of you. It will be more relaxed."
"And we will get to check out some Montana cowgirls. What do you say, Wayne?"' asked Marvin.
"I know I will probably regret this," Wayne replied. "I am leaving at 7PM. You know where my truck is parked. One thing though, Cindy wants to be back around midnight because she is leading a trail ride right after breakfast. She has to get up early to get all the horses saddled. I don't want to come looking for you, and I sure as hell don't want to have to leave you behind to fend for yourselves. I want you to meet back at my truck at a quarter to twelve. Agreed?"
Scott said that they all agreed and piled into the bunkhouse. He called for the first shower. They were waiting at Wayne's truck when he and Cindy showed up. No introductions were needed. Cindy worked with the wrangler, and they had met her on a number of occasions. She was a sophomore at the University of Montana. All of the young men in the group fell in love with her the first time that they saw her. She was everything a Montana cowgirl should be. Long legged with tight Wrangler jeans and polished boots, her single braid reached past her silver-studded belt. She had probably replaced her usual John Deere baseball cap with a white Stetson. Later Marvin commented that she wasn't a 10, but that she was damned close. Scott said that Cindy was excited because two of her cousins would be competing in the barrel racing event the next day, and she was eager to see them. They piled into the back of Wayne's old Chevy pickup. Twenty minutes later they cruised all around the fairgrounds looking for a free place to park. Finally, Marvin reached into his wallet and pulled out six bucks. He handed the money to Wayne through the open window.
'Hey, cheapskate, the parking is on us.'
Wayne and Cindy both laughed. Wayne paid some old American Legion guy the six bucks and entered a private field. Before Wayne had set the emergency break, if he even had one on that old truck, the boys had leapt over the side yelling the usual stupid remarks like, "Don't do anything we wouldn't do!"
"Make sure you're back here on time," Wayne yelled out to them.
"Don't let the carneys take all of your money," Cindy laughed.
Scott said they headed for the main gate where they came upon an entrance gate for the rodeo participants. Suddenly, Scott said that had a plan, and he didn't divulging it to the group. He said that a couple of stock trucks and a 4-H float waited to be let into the rodeo grounds. The float rocked from a half-dozen junior high and high school students who were yelling and laughing at everyone they recognized out on the street.
"I'll meet you at the beer gardens," Scott said as he stepped out on the street to get around the float. Scott said he planted his rump on the tail end of the float with his legs dangling. A couple of the kids started to say something when the float lurched forward. The kids laughed with renewed enthusiasm and just ignored Scott.
Andrew remembered the beer gardens. They were enclosed with a waist high wall made of rough cut lumber painted white, surrounded a large concrete patio. As many drinkers sat on the ledge of this short wall as on the picnic tables inside. The front of this beer corral was a converted trailer with a service counter. On each side of trailer was a high wood, planked fence to complete the enclosure. On two sides of the enclosure were openings manned by enforcers. They were old. Beer drinkers were carded going in and out if they left the enclosure with a beer in hand. Discarded paper cups littered the entire area. On one side of the beer gardens was an agriculture building with booths and displays inside. Scott said that as the group approached the beer gardens, he saluted them with a large Pepsi cup filled with beer.
"What took you so long? I'm on my second beer," said Scott.
"Yeah, right," one of the boys said, looking at the Pepsi logo on the paper cup.
Marvin reached out for the drink, and Scott handed it to him. Marvin took a long guzzling drink, wiped his mouth, and handed the drink back to Scott. "O, yee of little faith," he said looking at the others. "So what's the scam?"
"Too easy,' said Scott. "You've got kids all over the place drinking beer. I watched a couple of guys just walk up to the wall and pick off some beers that were just sitting on the ledge."
"Are you drinking someone else's beer?" asked Brad.
"Yeah, right, Numbnuts, the guys at the gates and the cops watch everyone out on the food corridor. No one pays attention to this side. Follow that path to the pissor, if you want to steal someone's beer. They just leave their beers out on the grass when they go take a leak. The teen rats clean up here.'
"OK," one of them asked. "How did you get your beer?"
"Easy," said Scott. "Wait until some young guys get up to leave. After they clear the gate, hold up six bucks and ask them to buy you one beer, and then meet them over there in the corner. Tell them to just put it on the ledge and walk away."
"Six bucks for a beer?" laughed Marvin.
"They cost four bucks, and look at the size of them. It's close to a God damned quart," Scott countered.
"That beer cost you six bucks!" retorted Marvin.
"What ever. Do you want a beer or what?" asked Scott.
They agreed if Scott would conduct the transaction. He told them it would cost them seven bucks apiece. He argued that it would take a few more bucks to get someone to buy four beers. They reluctantly agreed and moved back against the agriculture building to watch Scott in action.
His first contact was two guys and a girl who were all in their early twenties. Scott approached them within feet of the old man who sat guarding the entrance. He flashed his wad from his right front pocket. The old guy must have been deaf. The two guys were playing to a single audience, the girl. They sneered at Scott from both sides, and it was obvious that some unpleasant comments were being made. Finally, the girl tugged on one of the young rednecks, and all three stumbled down through the food bazaar.
Scott said his next contact was two young cowboys. Scott handed over the money, and both of the cowboys headed back to the beer garden. Scott moved over to the corner that he had pointed out. All of the guys were drawn to the corner as well. Scott kept looking all around for police or some adult who would spot them and finger them to the security or police, but no one was paying attention. Each of them picked up their beers from the ledge. He thanked the two cowboys and watched as they returned to the order line again.
"Cheers, gentlemen," said Scott. "Let's go sit up against the Ag building where we can smell bull-shit and watch all these cow-boys puking their guts up." He said he drew out the word cowboy and placed the emphasis on "boy". They found a spot between two buildings. Scott said that it was the path to the men's room. It was only 8 o'clock, and already guys were straggling and stumbling to take a leak.
Andrew remembered how freely Scott had told his story. Scott held nothing back, and, of course, he was emboldened when Andrew had laughed out loud. "All right. We're out of here," said Scott. "But not without one for the road." He sent Brad over to a food concession. Brad bought three large Pepsi cups of ice water for a buck. When he got back to the group, Scott took the cups out of the carrying box and drained them. "You guys go take a leak, while I get our shit-faced cowboys to buy us another round. Aw, don't worry. This rounds on me. My mom slipped me two hundred bucks, and my dad slipped me a hundred when I left. I'll meet you around on the other side by the rides. Don't hang around here. I don't want to draw any attention."
Scott told him that Marvin and Brad headed for the men's room. According to Marvin and Brad, some of the urinals were broken, and someone had taped two pieces of masking tape in an X pattern over the urinals. Both were over-flowing with re-cycled beer. A drunk was using one of the broken urinals as a target; Marvin and Brad told Scott later.
"The crosshairs are too danged high," the drunk complained to his friend. He stood weaving in front of the urinal laughing and turning his head to watch his companion laugh behind him. The toes of his cowboy boots, worn from rough use, absorbed the dripping urine. A few men coming and going chuckled, but for the most part everyone gave the two drunks a wide berth. Brad was coming out of one of the stalls, when the drunk stepped back, shook himself a couple of times and tucked himself back into his pants. He struggled with his zipper, spun around, and in the process lost his balance and crashed head long into Marvin's chest.
The cowboy's head had been facing down. As he bumped into Marvin's chest, the stiff brim of the hat pushed the back of the hat up and off the young cowboy's head. Both men simultaneously grabbed for the hat, and in the process it was crushed.
"You dumb, stupid son-of-a-bitch. Look what you done to my hat," the drunken cowboy yelled. Marvin stepped back and attempted to apologize, but he was cut short. "You think this is some damned imitation?" said the irate cowboy.
"I'm sorry, man," Marvin said as he backed up.
"This is a genuine, third-generation, beaver felt hat." The man turned to his friend. "Jake, I think we ought to kick the milk right out of this mamma's boy."
"Hold on. None of us wants to fight in this sorry shit house," said Brad. The two cowboys slowly realized that Marvin was not alone.
The drunk grinned when he looked at Brad's stature. He gave a stupid grin to his friend. Marvin spoke up again. "Besides being stupid, you don't know how to count."
Marvin quickly looked at Brad and then at me. We stepped forward. The flow of people in and out of the concrete lavatory stopped in anticipation of a fight. Marvin pointed to the drunk and then at the drunk's friend. "One, two. Then he taped his chest and pointed to us. 'One-two-three!'
The cowboy called Jake grabbed his friend by the shoulder and pointed him to the door. "Yeah, we know how to count. We know how to count real good."
"No one touches my hat, asshole," said the drunken cowboy, as they exited the men's room.
They decided to skedaddle. They cut through the buildings and came out by the kiddy's rides. Scott said he saw them and walked over carrying a box of four large Pepsi cups complete with lids and straws. "Where in the hell have you guys been?" he asked them. "These are heavy," he said as he passed around the beers.
"We had a bit of an altercation with two drunks in the pissor," Marvin said.
"Nothing worth recounting," replied Brad slurring his words. Scott said they walked passed the Zipper ride sipping their disguised beers. With the crisis passed, and the relief of escaping a fight, beer silliness caught up with them.
"You touched my grand pappy's hat, you sorry-assed flatlander," drawled Brad. He started laughing so hard he couldn't finish. Sucking on his straw, beer gushed through his nostrils and he spewed beer on the dirt, as they all jumped away.
"You're as fucked up as those other guys," laughed Marvin, while Brad tried to regain his composure.
"Yeah, mama's boy, I'm going to kick the milk right out of your mama."
"You dumb shit," Marvin said. "That's not how he said it."
Scott said he was laughing with the rest of them, but it was clear that he couldn't stand not being part of the story. He told them to finish up the beers.
Scott said he tilted up his remaining beer and started chugging. His Adam's apple bobbed on each swallow, and he never broke for air.
Marvin had already anticipated the challenge and was chugging down his beer. Brad and Marvin began chugging with little success. Brad conveniently spilled half of what was left in his cup. During the whole time, Scott said he laughed heartily. "Did you like those beers? Didn't they seem a little warm to you guys? But still good, right?"
"You jerk," laughed Marvin. "I'm going to kick your ass if those beers weren't bought by the cowboys."
"Maybe they were, and maybe they weren't," laughed Scott. "Like you said, it was a lot of money for four beers. Even if they are super sized!"
"Aw, man, you've got to be kidding," Brad said. "You have no idea what germs or bugs could be left on someone's cup. Do you know how many new forms of hepatitis they have added letters too?"
Scott said he told them that "booze is alcohol, and alcohol kills germs so relax."
"I'll relax when you tell me you're just kidding."
Scott told them that he had been kidding but he couldn't stop laughing.
"That's reassuring," Marvin mumbled. Brad walked along in silence. Scott said that they walked to the end of the rides, when he spotted three good-looking ladies their age. They were heading towards the stock corrals, but not before they checked out the guys and did the usual giggling routine.
Scott said that he and Marvin reached them first. Andrew remembered that both of the boys were charmers. Scott said the introductions swiftly covered the usual high school affiliation, bands, and interests. Brad and Dan hung back watching their two friends and their lady counterparts probe each other with questions. Remembering Scott's account of their encounter with the two young ladies, Andrew thought that it was a scene that he had watched all through high school, and it still mystified him how comfortable some guys and girls managed this dance.
Andrew looked through Betsy's ears at the road ahead. She had slowed down so he gently flipped the reigns and she resumed her gait. He wondered what the youngsters at the Alliance ranches really understood about schools, especially high school, and he wondered how long it would be before the Alliance was plagued by homemade beer and moonshine.
Andrew drifted back to his recollection of the boys. Sitting on the porch steps to the cabin, he remembered laughing out loud and encouraging Scott that evening so long ago. Scott went on to say that the girls laughed and conducted their interview, as they slowly headed for their rigs. The girls were barrel racers, and they were headed back to their trucks and stock trailers to check on their horses. They walked passed the outdoor venders, past the racetrack and out into a large field where dozens of trucks and horse trailers parked. Many of the truck rigs were accompanied by campers and trailers. A line of lights stretched for a hundred yards. Under the lights the cowboys and cowgirls and their parents set up pens or had their stock tied to the backs of their trailers or trucks. People milled about here and there talking about the upcoming competition and just finishing up the care of their animals. One of the girls Scott followed was showing off her horse, which was corralled in a series of stock fencing chained together. Scott said that they were all leaning on the fence looking at Betty's horse, when Scott spotted cowboy trouble walking up behind them. "He poked Brad who turned around. Scott said that he softly muttered, 'It's going to be the OK Corral, and we are outnumbered.'"
He hissed at Marvin and Dan to get their attention, but both of them were so engaged with the other two girls that they ignored him. The two guys from the men's room were almost upon them. Swaggering and grinning, they led a five or six man pack of restless young cowboys spoiling for action.
Scott said that he knew they would not escape a fight. They were on the tail end of the corrals, the race announcer's voice was booming across the field, and no one with any authority would come to their rescue. "The cowboy who had had his hat crushed stepped forward in arm's length of Marvin and Scott, with his friends flanking him on both sides. "So, Mr. Wiseguy, who says he knows how to count, I think we need a new counting lesson," he said as he began pointing at each of them and counting out loud. 'One piece of shit, two pieces of shit, three and four." He pointed to his chest. 'One shit-kicker, two shit-kickers, three, four, five and six shit-kickers." In that moment Scott said he picked out an opponent. Suddenly, a wiry young man with a military haircut butted in to the exchange. Scott said his muscles bulged under his tee shirt, and he was itching for the fight to begin.
"You out-of-towners fucked with the wrong guys, and now you assholes are going to have to deal with a marine."
"'Fuck the marines," Scott said, as he leapt into action. He threw a weak left-hand punch to the marine's head, ducked in low and threw a right uppercut to his groin. It was a glancing blow that turned the marine sideways but didn't take him down. He grabbed the neck opening of the marine's tee shirt just as he counter-punched with a high and glancing blow that he took mostly on the shoulder. Crouched low he came straight up the marine's chest with his head and connected with the marine's jaw. It was not a planned head butt, but it worked. Just as the tee shirt ripped, Scott said that he still held on and grasped the shirt in his left hand. He shot out with another right and another right to the man's gut. The marine deflected most of the blows. The marine stumbled backwards and tripped, as Scott shoved him up on the hood of a parked car. Scott had a clear shot at his stomach, which was visible through his tattered tee shirt. He took the shot. He went down quiet, and Scott said he watched him roll off the hood of the car to the ground, but he couldn't bring myself to kick him on the ground.
Scott said that he turned around to see the other combatants. Some where on the ground, some were madly throwing wild punches, someone was pushed halfway through the stock fence, and he was kicking back with some authority. Scott said that he found himself choking on the dust and confused that people all around where screaming and yelling and snorting and grunting like penned animals. It started four against six. But Scott said that when he surveyed the combatants, there were more than a dozen young men fighting and cursing each other.
He said that he watched as two men that he had previously not seen punch and kick at each other. Suddenly, a man in his early twenties stumbled out of the melee with his fist cocked. He was drunk, but he looked like a formidable fighter. He looked around and spotted Scott. Before he could take a step in Scott's direction, Scott looked at him and purportedly said, "Fuck off!" To Scott's surprise the man turned around and went back into the center of the fight. Then Scott saw Brad. He was on his hands and knees crawling. A much larger cowboy had him by the belt with his left hand while he drove in punches from over his head squarely on Brad's back. Scott ran to Brad's defense when some guy much smaller than him, and a lot less sober, blocked his progress with a roundhouse punch. Scott's last look at Brad was to see him stumble to his feet. His belligerent opponent met his match in Wayne, who suddenly arrived to their rescue. Wayne forcibly broke up a number of fighters, successfully taking out a few who refused to cooperate. Scott said that he could hear approaching adult men yelling to break it up.
It was all confusing, Scott had said. He couldn't grasp the entire scene because he had a pest who was trying to duke it out with me. Scott kept landing jabs to the pest's face, but he knew it was the waning moments of the fight. It was an uneventful, conventional boxing match. Scott knew he could move in and hurt him, but the police and security had arrived. Scott said that he told the young man that they we were both going to get busted, but the man kept moving right into the path of another jab. It was really quite stupid. Finally, a cop stepped in and parted them. By this time, the cops and the security guards yelled and jabbed and smacked the fighters with their batons if they were deaf or impervious to the riot's ending and the threat of arrest. The last fighters were handcuffed. Anyone who broke up cooperatively was told to stand next to the corral fence. One young cop stood menacingly next to this group. He kept them at bay and subdued with his baton, which he pointed at their chests. When anyone protested his innocence, the young cop would scowl, jab the young man in the chest and yell, "Shut the fuck up!" If I want you to talk, I'll tell you when to talk."
After about an hour of police interviews, Andrew's young warriors were loaded up and taken into the police station. A little while later he had been awakened from a sound sleep when Wayne called his home. Those who were over eighteen were cited to appear in court and told to leave the fair grounds. Those who were under aged were transported to the city jail. They had to show their identification in a conference room where they were searched and all of their personal possessions were placed in a large envelope. They didn't book them, however, so they had some hope that formal charges wouldn't be brought against them. They placed them in holding cells until a parent arrived. A couple of the guys were taken to the emergency room for stitches. Dan said that it was strange to be sitting in the same cell along with some of the guys they had just been fighting. Everyone seemed embarrassed or contrite when Andrew arrived to take custody of the boys. Yes, they were genuinely contrite, Andrew recalled.
Crossing Hagelstein Bridge, Andrew took the entrance road to a series of farm and ranch houses now under the protection of the Alliance. Algama Road made a six-mile loop off Highway 97 as the contour of the mountains slipped backwards to form what had once been a very large bay but was now broad, flat farmland. This vast tract of land had been claimed from the lake when the railroad decided to follow a straight line and built a railway berm from Haglestein Park straight along the shoreline until it met the mountains again. In all, nearly a dozen homes nestled themselves against the rocky slopes. Twice as many barns, hay storage barns and shops were scattered on both sides of the road. It was the furthest community farm from Alliance Headquarters. He was at the farm to pick up a young man who had been selected to become an apprentice to the Alliance Iron Works. He had met the young man last summer at the Alliance Spring Gathering, when the young man had been interviewed by a committee and put through a number of tests, along with a handful of other young men who desired an escape from ranch or farm duties. In two days he would head out with Lance in his buggy for a long day's ride to Alliance Headquarters. Tonight, however, he would be the guest speaker, which meant sharing his story with the communal group. He wondered if he should give the short version or the long version. He would judge his audience closely and embellish or constrict his story based on their reaction or his own enthusiasm for a tale he would just as soon forget. Nonetheless, he knew he was compulsive in the re-telling of his personal survival story of the dark days. From past travels from one ranch to the next, he had gained the reputation for being a storyteller. Older survivors were under represented on most of the ranches, and the young people most liked to hear about the Olden Days, particularly past their own experiences of growing up. Their survival stories often contained more suffering than what he had endured. He chuckled to himself on how easy it was to entertain in an age free of television, radio and video games. Sometimes he would get so sidetracked on an anecdote that he would forget where he was in his narrative, and the audience would always laugh and re-direct him.
Pulling into the yard, he was greeted by the group foreman. "Hey, Teach, how was the drive this morning?
"Well, the traffic was piled up at the junction. Damn near got a ticket for speeding, but it was a fine drive." Both men chuckled at the lame attempt at humor. It seemed to him that the older you were, the more prone you were in making references to the past. Somewhere in the transition to old age, he mused, seniors find themselves looking backwards, while young people look forward. Oh, what the hell, he thought. I still look forward. Looking backwards was more about loss than giving up on the present. As he got out of the buggy emitting his usual moans and groans, he thrust his arms skyward and stretched his back. The foreman took the reins and led the mare to the barn. Over his shoulder the foreman said, "You missed lunch, but the cooks will rustle you up something to hold you until dinner. We took a vote last night, and there was overwhelming support for you being our guest storyteller tonight. Some of us have heard some of your stories before, but a good re-run is hard to beat."
Teach headed for the communal dining room. It had been a large, insulated workshop in the past. At one end of the large hall the wood stoves and fire pit bustled with women cleaning up after lunch, while others prepared the evening meal. They greeted him with warm smiles and offers of food. He sat down at the table and bench closest to the food preparation area and exchanged pleasantries with many of the women who he knew personally from his four or five visits a year. After his lunch, he wandered the dining hall looking at the new children's bulletin board. A four by eight sheet of plywood hung on the wall. The children were making a giant collage of what life was like in the past. Tacked and glued and nailed to the sheet of plywood were relics of the Olden Days when electricity influenced leisure and customs. Records, a Barbie Doll, photographs, a blow dryer and an assortment of photographs and oddities demanded attention, including a rainbow of credit cards. The ranch had only a few adopted orphans and a handful of children born to the ranch women. Tomorrow he would talk to their teacher and exchange teaching ideas and lesson plans and library books from the other ranches. Until the evening meal, he was free to roam and visit, but he knew where his guest room was located and felt a nap would refresh him.
That evening immediately after dinner, he met with both the Planning Committee and the Work Committee. Although he had no authority to evaluate or judge the effectiveness of ranch progress, through the years he had become an ombudsman for the ranches relaying their concerns to the Alliance Central Committee. He looked out at the workers clearing the tables. Kitchen duty was so disdained by both the women and men that assignments were rotated. Coffee, a rationed luxury, was being served in his honor, along with the pride they felt for Lance's acceptance into the black smith program. At the completion of his apprenticeship, he would be a valuable asset to the communal farm. He wiped his face on a cloth napkin and thanked the men and women around him for their pleasant company. A middle age woman approached him. She smiled as she approached and gave him an enthusiastic embrace as he got up from the bench.
"Well, teacher, we have looked forward to your visit for quite some time. Before you leave, I would like to introduce you to Debra. She would make a fine nurse and midwife."
"Now, Rebecca, you know we won't have such an opening for some time. Not because we don't have the need. It's just that Jane can't do her job and handle anymore students than she has now."
"I know. Just the same, I want you to meet her. Come along. I'll introduce you to the group. We are in our third year of operation, and we sometimes feel off the beaten track, so visitors who are story tellers are always welcome." They headed for the corner where a chair had been set up in front of a large rock hearth. Stools and musical instruments surrounded the hearth. Rebecca introduced him and took her seat in the audience. Children were hushed as he took his seat on a padded stool.
"Good evening. Many of you know me as Teach or the teacher. I prefer to be addressed simply as Andrew, but somehow the moniker has stuck. I arrived at the Alliance in year 2014. Why I survived is a mystery. How I survived is a grizzly tale of mayhem, bloodshed and horrifying death. Unlike most of you, I experienced the Black Death in relative isolation--far from the maddening crowd. Like most of you, the Black Death took my entire family, but that is a story I am unable to tell. Most of you saw horror on a scale that I still can only imagine, but the horror I discovered defied logic. What we had instead was the occult. Now, if I ramble, or get off the topic too much or forget where I was, just shout out some directions. A lot of years have gone by since the Blackness, but in telling you my story I want to also step back in time to give you young ones a bit of an idea of what we all refer to as the Olden Days. I had been a high school English teacher, and during the summer I was a fly fishing guide in western Montana. At the beginning of the black summer, I was approached by my outfitter.
"Andrew, I've got a little problem that I am hoping you can resolve for me."
"Tom, I need two days off to recuperate. Six guiding days in a row is more than I can handle any more."
"No, take the days off." I looked up in surprise. "Well, the other day I heard you mention that you would miss teaching. I just got a call from our youth leader that he has a family emergency, and he can't teach the fly fishing school. I am really desperate. There is no way I can find a replacement for Dan with only a week until the boys arrive," John continued.
"Man, that's a five week, 24-7 assignment more fitting for a college student than an old fart like me. It's intriguing, but I'd find it too exhausting. I need my space, and besides Pauline doesn't see me much as it is. Tom, I couldn't do it. The teaching part would be fun, but I don't want to be nanny to a bunch of spoiled, rich kids."
"I shifted one of the young men to Steve's group. He was ok with that. And before you say no, let me tell you that you could go home at night when you are not in the back country. I also have a past graduate who has been one of our students for two summers. Wayne just finished his first year of college. He's working in a fly shop in Bozeman, but he said he would take the job in a heart beat."
"How are you going to handle the supervision at night to placate the parents? I asked.
"Wayne will baby sit at night. Besides, the four kids you would have are two high school graduates, a seventeen year-old and a 16-year old. I have already contacted three families and given them the option of a refund. I told them I could find an excellent replacement but that he was a married man and would not be bunking with the boys. They didn't have any problem with that. Two of the couples were heading out on a vacation and didn't want their plans altered.
I picked up a pack of leaders and entered it into the ledger under the counter. "We would have a lot to negotiate. I am no starry-eyed, back-packing, college kid. I won't follow Steve's "Survival-Montana program." Steve was the other guide school leader. The program was set up with two groups of boys and their two leaders. The groups alternated staying at the guest ranch. While one group stayed at the ranch, the other group hit the road with a Suburban and beater truck that pulled all the equipment. For the students the road trips were the most fun. For me it would mean uncomfortable nights crammed into a small tent fighting with the inevitable leaky air mattress. Still, it would get me into the backcountry, although I was not sure I was quite up to the task. Hell, I knew it would be hard work, but a light backpack and a mountain trail wouldn't kill me I thought.
"Agreed."
"Buddy and Banjo will come along on the wilderness back-packing trip. I'm too out of shape to carry a 60-pound pack twelve miles."
I knew John was weighing this demand, but I was inflexible on this point. It would be somewhat of a risk. My donkeys would not be covered on his live stock insurance policy. It was a liability risk John didn't want to think about. "I'm a little worried about that," said Tom. "Didn't you tell me the little one was still a little wild and had a tendency to kick?"
"Only if you are stupid enough to walk behind him within kicking range, and only if he gets startled," I replied with obvious sarcasm. "Banjo has a measure of dignity for a wild, BLM ass. He doesn't want man, beast or dog to be sniffing his butt. Tom, they're both good animals. Your wrangler can assess them in a ten minute meeting."
"Any other demands," asked Tom.
"There ain't no vice principal in these here parts," I drawled in my feigned cowboy imitation. "Out West we got a simple discipline policy for smart-ass city kids."
"You know we have had very little problems in the past with these kids. You've worked with them in the past for the fly fishing lessons," said Tom.
"I know. You haven't mentioned pay, however."
"I'll have a generous contract ready for you tomorrow," said John.
"Deal." We shook hands.
The week went by quickly as I prepared lessons and an itinerary. I read the contract the boys and their parents signed regarding drugs, alcohol and general rules of conduct while they stayed at the lodge and were under the direct supervision of their camp leaders. The boys began arriving at the Missoula airport on Saturday and Sunday. I resisted the urge to meet the early arrivals, preferring instead to just wait until Monday after breakfast when the outdoor school began its first session.
At eight o'clock Monday morning, I parked my truck behind the bunk house. I had just had breakfast with Wayne, my young assistant. I liked him immediately. Walking across the manicured lawn in front of the lodge, I was offered a ride by one of the office assistants in a golf cart. I declined. Stepping out of a golf cart to meet the students would not be a good first impression. I passed by the corrals and made my way to the bunk house that they used to house the boys. Steve's group had already started a week earlier and they had already moved out for their first camping and fishing trip. My group would have the cabin for a week and then we would pack up the trucks and hit the road for our first outing. Stepping up on the wood, planked porch of the bunk house, I could hear laughter inside, which was a good sign. The boys had had 24 hours to break the ice with each other and wander around the lodge, ride horses, fish the stocked pond or play a few rounds on the putting green. I knocked on the half-opened door and entered the main room of the bunkhouse. Just like the first day of school, I thought. The boys all turned quiet and waited for the introduction.
Hey, guys, I'm Andrew, your fishing instructor and guide for the next five weeks. You have already met Wayne, my assistant. He'll join us later. He's got some paperwork to fill out this morning. OK, I need you to introduce yourselves." The young men stood up and gathered around me. Each of the young men stepped forward and shook my hand and gave their name. "I've brought an outline of all the fly fishing and rafting skills you will learn in the next five weeks, as well as an itinerary of our fishing trips both operating out of the lodges and our wilderness trip." The young men grabbed chairs, and I could see the enthusiasm on each face. The one thing all of these young fellows had in common was a passion for fishing regardless of where they lived. Most of them had found the Rocky Mountain School of Fly Fishing on their own on the Internet. Many of the fathers had found the school for their son through a magazine or a fly fishing catalogue.
Another common denominator these young outdoorsmen often shared was that they were all hard core anglers from early childhood, some even from families who had not fished for more than a generation. I have often commented that hunting and fishing is a primordial urge that can surface in the oddest family structures. I knew of one young man from a wealthy family in New York who announced to his startled parents that he was quitting college to go to Montana to be a hunting guide. It was no different a hundred or two hundred years ago. Some men are born too hunt and fish. Many of these men would compromise their passion to hunt and fish with jobs, careers and families. A very small number would resign themselves to low wages, long hours and unsettling relationships with wives and girlfriends in order to spend their lives outdoors fishing and hunting. In a lifetime of fishing and hunting, I never once worried about the little problems in life that slowly kill you when I was staring at a dry fly drifting on the surface of a Montana river, or when I peered out over my decoys from a camouflaged boat.
Looking at the boys I couldn't help feign an introductory method I had learned at a teacher's conference. "Alright, since we are going to be together for five weeks, we need to develop group cohesiveness. We need to learn about our differences and respect each of the diverse personalities in the group." I saw the quick glances between a couple of the boys and the eyes rolling back on one young man's face. I have prepared a number of ice breakers starting with my favorite, "Three Truths and a Lie." Only one of the boys looked me in the eye. The others sat staring at the floor. After an agonizing pause I said, "Do you want to skip the bull-shit ice breakers?" The boys laughed heartily, and I began my first session.
OK, let's just introduce ourselves and tell the group why you signed up for this school along with some background info on your fishing experiences to date. I'll start.
I'm Andrew. I'm 63, and I retired as a high school English teacher here in Montana last year. I started my guiding career when I taught in Jackson Hole, Wyoming, and began, interesting enough, teaching a summer fly fishing program in an Orvis endorsed lodge similar to this one. I fished and taught in Wyoming a couple of years until I realized that I was in the wrong state for fly fishing so I moved to Montana. I guided for almost twenty years, took off a number of years, but now I've got the guiding itch again. In all probability this will be my last year of guiding - it cuts too much in to my own fishing time. And besides, rowing a boat all day up river is just too much work. OK, now here's the catch. Each one of you has to end your personal introduction with this formula: I aspire to _____. I plan on catching____ I want to fish ________.
One of the boys spoke up. "You forgot to fill in the blanks for yourself."
"All right, wise guy, you are next after me. I aspire to build the perfect combination duck hunting boat and fishing boat out of aluminum. I plan on catching a ten-pound northern pike on a fly rod, and I want to fish for stripers this fall in the San Francisco Bay. You're next."
The first boy was tall and lanky with straight, blonde hair. He continually pushed his hair back behind his ears, but it never stayed more than twenty seconds. He was outgoing and always looking for an excuse to laugh. I had seen this character in every class I taught for over thirty years. This kid would always be the last one to settle down and get back on task. Regardless of the name or physical appearance, this type of kid was always both a problem in class as well as the supplier of often needed comic relief. You had to love these kids, but on some days they could wear a teacher out.
My name is Marvin, Marvelous Marvin to my friends. I won't tell you what the ladies call me..."
"Misfit Marvin!" piped up one of the boys, which set the group to laughing. I laughed as well. Not because the bravado or retort was clever but because Marvelous Marvin had already pulled the group together and they felt comfortable.
"You're a real comedian, a smart-ass, and a wanna be piscatorial purist," responded Marvin with a grin.
"Hey, Andrew," spoke up one of the boys Marvin had addressed. "You're the English teacher. What the f--- did he just say?"
"He said you are a smart ass who wants to enter the fraternity of dry fly anglers." And now this brings up a teaching moment. Gentlemen, in this outdoor classroom, we don't use the f-word, nor do we make reference to any Oedipus entanglements."
"The M-F word," interrupted Marvin.
"Thank you, Marvin. Anyone using those words in my presence will be volunteering for KP or camp cleanup.
"So, Andrew, what four-letter words can we use?"
"Most of the Saxon words will be acceptable?" I said.
One of the boys spoke up, "I thought it was Anglo-Saxon."
"Notice which of those groups comes first. When the Anglos defeated and subjugated the Saxons, the Anglo language became the formal spoken language. The Saxon language was considered crude." I looked across at the young men and smiled. "So, in this camp, you may use SOME of the Saxon words such as shit, crap, piss, but only under extreme hardship or provocation, and never in the presence of another adult."
"That's it?" asked Marvin. "How about Dimwit?'
"Fine."
"Retard?"
"No."
"Butthead?"
"Fine."
"Son-of-a Bitch?"
"You had better smile when you say that in this country. Read The Virginian.
"Will you be making literary references for the next five weeks?" asked Marvin.
"Sometimes, but I never had the gift or talent for remembering literary quotes. Nor was I any good at remembering titles. Good English teachers can pull a quote out of thin air at a moment's notice. And yes, I know that I have just resorted to cliché, but I am retired. Now, continue introducing yourself. We have an introductory fly tying lesson right after the introductions," I replied.
"I just graduated from high school. I live in Sacramento. I've been a bass fisherman all my life on the delta, and during the summer I fish for trout in the Sierras. Oh, I almost forgot the formula intro," said Marvin. "I aspire to meet a squaw named "Do-What-You-Want-To-Do" and fall in love. I plan on having her show me how to catch hungry rainbows on ant larva dug from an ant hill, and I want to fish or F_ until I am exhausted." The boys burst out laughing and shouting. Andrew and the remaining three knew no one would match Marvin's colorful introduction so the rest of the intros would be straightforward and brief.
All eyes were on me, and I could not disguise my amusement, but I straightened up, frowned and addressed Marvin who was still soaking in the admiration. "Marvin, you clearly do not live in an area with native Americans. If you did, you would know that the word squaw is a derisive insult to Native Americans."
"You're kidding."
"When the fur trappers arrived in the Rocky Mountains they were often the misfits and psychopaths of the societies they left. The word squaw referred to a woman's genitalia."
"Wow, man, I was just making a joke. I never knew that. Sorry, Chief," said Marvin.
"Apology accepted, although Do-What-You-Wanna-Do might be a little less forgiving," I stated arching one of my brows. I looked at Marvin and knew from the lad's reaction that I would like this kid, just like I had liked all the Marvins that came through my classroom all those years.
Brad was the next one to speak up and introduce himself. He was a thin, narrow-shouldered youth with sandy hair. His eyes were slightly close together, and I could see a slight laugh line and a twinkle in his eyes. "I'm from San Diego. I'll be a senior next year. I'm pretty much just a bass fisherman. I don't want to meet some girl named "Do-What-You-Wanna-Do," but I want to Do-What-I-Want-To-Do."
"Hold on, Pilgrim. We've got some rules here," I drawled with my feigned imitation of John Wayne. Only one of the kids recognized the imitation, and I realized I was getting too old for teenagers.
Brad quickly added, "I aspire to catch a Bull Trout. I plan on catching fish on flies that I have tied, and I want to fish in the wilderness where my mom can't reach me on her cell phone!
"Bravo," responded Marvin.
I nodded my head and knew immediately that Brad would out fish his peers. "You're next," I said, pointing to a quiet, dark haired youth. I noticed that the young man had not laughed as hard as the others during Marvin's exchange with the group. He had giggled and then covered his mouth, as if he was not sure of himself in a newly formed group. He seemed shy but not reserved.
"Hi, I'm Dan. My father is a surgeon. We live in Los Vegas. I've not really fished all that much, but I want to learn. This trip is a graduation present from my parents. My dad wanted me to go on a Grand Tour of Europe, but my mom sided with me for the first time ever. My goal is to catch at least one big trout."
"Glad to meet you, Dan. I'll have you catching trout in no time. "You're next." I nodded to a young man leaning his chair back against the knotty pine wall. One look and I knew he was a young man with a sense of humor, probably a jokester. He had red hair under a baseball cap. He was slightly over weight. The sparkle in his eye and the half forming grin told everyone that Scott would be the one to match wits and humor with Marvin.
"I'm Scott. I'll be a senior next year. My parents sent me to this camp because I got into some serious shit last summer. I've been on probation for a year, and this is my reward for being a good boy. I aspire to harpoon a skateboarder, stalk a grizzly, and drink a Moose Drool beer, while I am here in Montana."
"May I remind you of the contract that you and your parents signed, "I said.
"Yeah, I was just kidding, except about the skateboarders. I have been reformed."
Brad laughed, "Oh, yeah, what about last night after the bon fire?" Scott took off his cap and whacked Brad who ducked and continued laughing.
"Do I need to know any of this," I asked, but all of the boys said no. Now, the last member of our group." Wayne walked in and took a seat. "Wayne, we're just finishing up on introductions." I nodded to the last boy.
"Well, this school prides itself on making fly anglers out of lowly worm dippers, we make men out of boys, and you better behave yourselves, because if any of you give me a hard time, you're going to be on the oars while I fish."
"OK, the last introduction is from Wayne. I know you have spent some time with him, but I just met him at breakfast"
"Yeah, I'm Wayne. Andrew, I've already given my life story to these guys, but I'll tell you what I forgot to tell you at breakfast. I'm from Tampa, Florida. I just dropped out of my first year of college at Montana State in Bozeman, but I haven't told my parents yet. In my junior year of high school they made a bargain with me that if I earned at least a 3.5 GPA they would send me to this junior guide school. I was also here last summer after I graduated. Last year I attended Bozeman State. I've been working in a fly shop, and I am thinking about becoming a full time Montana fly fishing guide this fall and maybe take a few classes during the winter. I plan on catching a lot of air on my snowboard this winter...What was next?"
"I want to fish ..."
"I want to fish and make a living at it," Wayne finished.
"Don't plan on getting rich," I laughed.
"I know all about rich," Morgan countered. "Rich gets in the way of fishing."
"Hard core," responded Scott.
"OK, everybody take a break, and I'll meet you in the classroom behind the office in fifteen minutes. We are going to start with the basics of fly fishing, and then you are going to tie your first leader and tie up your first fly. Bring all of your equipment.
I headed out the cabin door. It looks like a good group I thought to myself, but there is always one who will have to be the pain in the ass or the one who challenges leadership. I wonder which one it would be. Of course it doesn't have to be that way. Most of my classes throughout the years were free of trouble makers. I wondered why I was anticipating problems for no apparent reason.
Chapter 2
"The first week was mostly instructional with fishing trips to the local creeks. Our classroom was actually a conference room we used when management wasn't promoting condominium sales or resort membership. Leather chairs surrounded a large oval table. The walls were decorated in a tasteful cowboy motif. The picture window framed the Bitterroot River. It was during the evening campfire that I really got to know the boys. The first visit to their evening campfire outside their quarters was, to be expected, rather formal and awkward. I could see the outline of four youths around the campfire. Wayne must be with the other young workers at the resort, I thought. I had heard raucous laughter coming from the boys seated around the fire, but on my approach the laughter subsided. Adults and certainly old farts like me could not enter this circle of teenage intimacy without being invited, and that in itself is a rarity. I pulled up a chair and we all gave the customary greetings.
"I asked the usual questions of how their dinner was and if they had enjoyed the fly fishing tape that I had left for them to watch. "Tonight I want to talk to you guys about our road trips and our wilderness trips. Everyone will pull his share of the chores and labor, and we all look after each other. I am not your surrogate father, nor do I relish playing the role of protector and guardian. I'm too old to fit into this group, but I also don't want to be excusing myself early in the evening so that young men can bull shit around the campfire without being intimated by an old guy. So, here's the camp rules. No one goes fishing until all the camp chores are done. When the fishing is over for the evening, we sit around the campfire. What is said at the campfire stays at the campfire." My four charges nodded their heads in agreement.
"I expect we will learn a lot about each other around the campfires. In the tradition of Brett Harte and Mark Twain, I also expect to hear some good stories. Everyone has a good story to tell. If you can't think of one, make one up. You may tell the complete truth, embellish the truth or fabricate a story, but it will be considered bad camp manners to judge someone's veracity.
"Finally, I will be handing out some spiral notebooks. I will want you to occasionally write a fishing log. The camp director told me he has had some complaints from past parents that they rarely received any letters from our young participants. If you have had a great day float fishing, I want you to record the day. What river were we fishing? Describe the scenery and the water conditions. What flies did you use? How many fish did you catch? What was the biggest fish that you caught? Who did you partner up with on the raft and things like that? These pages will then be used to send to your parents."
The boys groaned and mildly protested. Scott asked if I would be grading the journal entries. "No, I won't, nor will I get after you if you don't do any writing. Ask your parents to save the letters. I think that they will be valuable to you later in life "Andrew, will you be journaling too?" asked Dan.
"You bet I will. Fishing has been a central theme in my life. I have been writing a lot lately on my fishing and guiding years, as well as writing about the people and events that have shaped me. Call it a cumulative record of screw ups punctuated by occasional surprises and successes. It would be pretentious to call it a memoir. In fact I will be journaling about this fly fishing camp. The campfire stories will help jog my memory." We sat for quite some time in silence. Looking through the flames of the campfire, I could see heads dodging curling smoke. Dan had pulled over an old picnic table and was sitting on the table top. I was the adult outsider. I had already told Marvin to leave his IPod in the cabin so already I was feeling my age. Christ, I'm forty-five years older than these guys. I had also noticed that Wayne had excused himself to spend time with the young staff members at the lodge. At that moment I realized it could be a long five weeks, if I didn't break the teacher role that seemed to manifest itself in everything I said and did.
Marvin forced everyone to jump back and break from the fire's spell when he suddenly dropped a large log on the fire. Sparks flew everywhere and Scott said, "You Jerk. Now somebody has got to talk."
"You just did. So how about a story from you," sneered Marvin.
"How about if I tell a story about a weirdo," replied Scott.
"Sounds good to me," I said. "How about a weird place or a weird person?"
Brad spoke up. "How about a weird place that we have lived or stayed?
It didn't get much of a response. Everyone sat quietly reflecting on the subject. Marvin leaned forward in his chair. "I've got one, but you raised the subject so you should go first." With that we had established the campfire protocol.
Brad nodded his head in agreement and slowly put out his hands near the fire to rub them against the radiated warmth. We had already learned a few things about Brad. His father was a surgeon who lived in Dallas. Brad lived with his mother in Santa Fe. She was an architect. Since his parent's divorce, he spent his summers with his father outside Seattle. "When I was in eighth grade, my parents leased a condominium while our house was being built. We were on the second floor. The entrance to each condominium was designed in such a way that you would only bump into a neighbor on just one portion of the stairs. We rarely saw anyone or spoke to any of our neighbors. The only people we would see would be the people around the pool in the evening. It was not an adult only complex, but my sister and I never saw any kids. It was eerie. Now, I need to tell you that the security was always around in this gated community. One afternoon after school, I was sitting out on the deck. Below us is a large commons with a pool and recreation room in the center of what looks like a city park. Looking through the trees to the buildings across from us, I could see police swarming up all the stairs with guns drawn in broad daylight.
"I jumped to my feet. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Police storming homes just doesn't happen in our community, let alone at Oak Ridge. I could see that the police were confused. Suddenly, one of them pointed in my direction. The man in charge pointed directly at me. Everyone was pointing in my direction and running across the lawn, past the pool and heading to my building. They had their guns drawn and some of them were cocking their head to the side as they ran to communicate on their shoulder mounted microphones. The first man to run up the stairs had a battering ram. I was really freaked. I just stood there facing the front door.
"Police! We have a warrant. Open up!'
"The battering ram slammed against the door, but it wasn't my door they were storming like the Oakland Raiders. They were battering the door next to me! Then I heard a shout down below. The police were also storming the apartment below us. The manager had opened the sliding glass door with a master key, and the police charged into the apartment.
"It took me about ten minutes to open my door and peek out. I saw a steady stream of police officers and men in suits. They were leading two men downstairs in handcuffs. The manager told me to stay inside, but when he left I walked around the corner to the opened door. Cops were everywhere, and none of them said a thing to me. A woman was inside photographing a huge pile of jewelry on a coffee table. Then a detective came up to me and told me I would have to leave. I asked him what was going on, and he told me that they had just taken down the biggest burglary ring in the city's history. Get this. The guy next to us had a brother who lived in the condominium across the commons. The two brothers ran an exclusive catering business. They would cater some rich man's party and then case the joint for the alarm system and what he had to steal. Later they would go back and clean the place out. The two brothers had been sitting down taking inventory of all the jewelry that they had accumulated over a number of heists. When they walked past me in handcuffs, they had white gloves on both hands. Now here is the best part. Later we found that their mother owned the condo downstairs. She owns one of the trendiest restaurants in the city. So, here we were living around a pack of thieves. And all of these people had successful, legitimate businesses! I couldn't believe that something like that could happen there. My parents were freaked, but they had signed a six month lease."
"We had a next door neighbor who hung herself," added Dan without any attempt to outdo Brad. "Everyone said it was so weird because women usually don't kill themselves with guns and stuff like that."
"Or a noose," said Scott. He had been around Dan just a couple of days and knew the story was over unless he coached it out of him. "So, did you get to see the stiff?"
"Yeah."
"No shit! So what did she look like?"
"I got a pretty good look from my backyard. A friend of mine and I pulled the trampoline over next to the fence when the cops and firemen arrived. First the cops showed up because someone had said that they hadn't seen Mrs. Ferguson for days. Then the fire department showed up, which was really strange because Mrs. Ferguson had been dead for days, and the paramedics couldn't do anything for her when she was ...dead." Dan knew he had everyone's attention, and he lowered his head to cover a slight smile.
"Did she stink?" asked Marvin.
"Shut-up. She didn't stink. I'm telling my story, OK. The strange part was the cops and firemen looked like they were at a tailgate party for some football game. They were all talking and shaking hands, and here was Mrs. Ferguson hanging from the timbers in her breezeway between the garage and the house. Finally, one of the firemen got up on a step ladder and cut the rope. Everyone just went on talking, and no one gave the fireman a helping hand. I'll never forget the sound of her body hitting the concrete. The body slumped to the side, and her head hit so hard it sounded like a dropped watermelon from two stories up."
"Gross," said Scott.
"That's really weird. I've never seen a dead body," said Brad. "Hey, Andrew how about a story of some weird person you recall, maybe from your childhood.
"That would be too far back in his memory bank," laughed Marvin.
Chapter 3
"I knew immediately which childhood friend I would share," he said as he paused for dramatic impact. Andrew shifted on the stool and peered out at his audience. Some of the candles were being lit, and his audience was settled and waiting for his next bit of trivia or an amusing anecdote or just the continuation of his story. He leaned forward and lowered his voice. "In the Olden Days there were a lot of people - a lot of crazy people - a lot of dangerous people. So far we have only had to banish three individuals in the Alliance, but in the Olden Days we were stuck with them. My childhood nemesis was extremely bright and dangerous. In short, he was a sociopath!"
Three or four hands shot up from children in the audience. Andrew looked at the waving hands and smiled. He pointed to a young girl sitting on the floor with her legs crossed under a brown smock. "Teacher, what is a sociopath?"
"Thank you for asking. What is your name?"
"Sarah."
"Well, Sarah. At one point in our history, sociopaths were considered evil. They would harm other people and have no remorse or guilt. They were a threat to any small community. Later society decided that these people were born without a conscience. They were incapable of feeling sadness for the bad things that they did. Sometimes the bad things are small and just annoying, such as stealing. But sometimes sociopaths are very smart and clever, and they control other people and make everyone fear for their lives."
A teenager raised his arm and spoke forcefully from across the room. "We keep hearing rumors about a War Lord in the Link River country. Is he a sociopath?
"Yes, I believe he is. But it is not my place to discuss external threats to the Alliance. When the time comes, I am sure that you will be invited to a ranch meeting or Alliance Open Meeting. Well, let me return to my young sociopath, and keep in mind that every commune, while not having any sociopaths, always has its share of crazy people and eccentrics.
Andrew leaned forward and hissed the word sociopath while exaggerating his enunciation. "I told this story to those boys that summer, so let me share it with you. But first, without thinking or hesitating, I want you to point your finger at the craziest person in this audience." Immediately the youngsters and most of the adults were pointing their fingers at someone close to them. "Ah, hah," said Andrew, "Just as I suspected!" His audience laughed and than settled down and waited for Andrew to continue.
"When I was in fourth grade, we bought our second home. Heading to see our new house, we traveled on Workman Mill Road north and then east around the Whittier Hills until we arrived at the Sunkist community called Hill Grove, which consisted of a small grocery store with an attached soda fountain and a barbershop. Across the street on the west side was a closed hardware store. Directly across the street from Hill Grove Market was a "Five and Dime" store, which carried clothes, household items, gifts and toys. The store was run by two middle-aged sisters, who were both cheerful and kind to youngsters ogling the packaged marbles, kites, tops and Jacks. They show cased all of the toys under a large window. And for you youngsters, don't forget that tomorrow after breakfast I will be teaching marble games. Adults are welcome. I digress.
"Next to the store was a small post office and a building that people paid their electric and water bills. Kitty corner to this rural merchant center was the Sunkist packing plant, the only employer of labor in the entire area. Seasonal and non-seasonal workers lived in the area surrounding the orange packing plant. Down the street from the plant was a shoe repair business, a 76 gas station and a few other small businesses. The orange groves and avocado groves came right down from the hills to meet the residential homes and few businesses of Hill Grove. Directly behind the packing plant was the Southern Pacific Railroad line.
"Across the tracks were about twenty homes, all occupied by Mexican families. I remember seeing young Mexican children present a slip to the grocer for staples. He never turned them down and always respectfully inquired of their parents or grandparents. The slips of paper were placed under the till drawer. He had one other regular employee, a thin man with a deep voice and an extremely large Adam's apple. I liked them both, and my parents held the owner in great respect. Beyond the tracks were miles of alpha fields. Closest to our new home was a field of roses, a half mile long and a quarter mile deep. This four year crop was organized by ten yard rows of yellow and then scarlet and pinks. It was a wonderful palate of color. Hill Grove was rural, beautiful and doomed.
"My father by all the standards of the times was neither short nor tall. He had strawberry blonde hair that was naturally wavy. He had a likeable smile, a slightly enlarged nose, which was the family trademark, and my mother always described him as a ladies' man. Although it was true that he was attractive and charming to the ladies, it is also true that when he walked into a room at a social gathering, people would gravitate to him. Years later my mother would say that my father always wanted a bigger and nicer house to help remind him that he had made it. That day he wanted to stop by Hill Grove Market to buy some lunch supplies so that we could eat lunch in our new, empty house. In front of the old hardware store was a huge, empty lot across from the grocery store. Gazing out the window I saw Brian Nelson peddling his bike furiously across the vacant lot. My father had slowed down considerably upon entering the crossroad intersection that made up Hill Grove, and I was able to study this potential friend closely. He was my age. I was both drawn and repelled by his actions. Was he showing off racing our family car? His head was flying from side to side as he stood up to pedal, pushing his legs downwards as fast as he could. He was breathing heavy, perhaps running from demons. He was impervious to our presence, however, so I just studied him as we slowed down to park. What a strange kid, I thought. I would meet him later when we moved in, and from the very first sight of him, and throughout the next four or five years, I would be drawn to him out of curiosity and then be repelled by his perverse ways.
"Our home was part of a small tract of homes built by a local citrus grower named Jewett. He was the first desecrater of our newly found rural tranquility. He carved out 28 houses at the corner of one of his groves. We were the third buyers on Marwood, a dead-end street with six other homes, not counting the two corner houses. Our home, 14809 Marwood, was directly across the street from the Potocki family. Gerald, the husband, could always be found sitting or squatting on his hams on his front porch drinking beer during warm weather, even though he had built a very nice patio in the back. He was a big man with bulging muscles. His long, jet black hair was greased and combed in the fifties look, which was straight back fenders with the front pulled down. He put up bill board signs, had a raspy deep voice, smoked heavily, drank tons of coffee when he wasn't drinking beer and generally wore blue jeans and white tee shirts. He was always buying and selling the family car. He and his wife had two sons, JJ and Jimmy. Jimmy was a year younger than me in school.
"Most families in those days had one car, unless the wife worked. His wife Tina was a chain smoking, coffee addict. Throughout the house and the garage could be found old, half-filled cups of coffee with drowned cigs. Her kitchen was always messy, and to my shock, she served coffee to her children at breakfast with a half cup of milk mixed in. She wore no makeup, kept her hair long and stringy and always wore old flannel shirts over dungarees. I never observed or saw any femininity or sexuality until years later when she stopped by the house to ask my mother for a hat pin. She was going to a funeral. I stood admiring her in shock with my mouth agape. She was gorgeous in a tight fitting black dress. When she left, my mother turned to me and said, "Are you surprised that she is so good looking?" Yes, I replied. Tina was the mother of JJ, her youngest of two sons, who boldly took a dump on our front yard just as my father finished seeding it. Gerald, sitting on his front porch sipping a beer, just laughed, called his son to him on the front porch, and never got up to remove his son's "welcome to the neighborhood gift".
"JJ was a perverted little boy. One winter afternoon Jimmy and I were playing marbles in his garage. We were not playing for keeps. Instead I talked Jimmy into practicing set-ups with a boulder. I wanted to practice shooting a boulder that was placed between the legs of the set-up man. I found it frustrating when a set-up kid would spread his legs and then move the boulder around like a magician. To consistently win I had to hit the boulder, as soon as the kid lifted his cupped hand from the boulder. It was difficult, especially if there were five or six shooters in the field. Jimmy was a lousy shot. It would take him four or five attempts before he would hit the boulder. I would lift the flat of my hand on top of the boulder. Out on the streets, if a shooter fired and hit the boulder while the set-up man still had contact with the boulder, it was the shooter's loss.
"With my palm and fingers stretched out, Jimmy would be poised to fire as soon as my hand lifted a fraction of an inch. Over and over again, I would begin to lift my hand and then with one finger I would roll the boulder to the side. Jimmy would fire one or two marbles to the phantom position. I laughed harder each time. Finally, it was my turn. No matter what he did I would manage to hit the boulder with my first shot. If I missed my left hand had two or three marbles that fed the right just like the magazine in a semi-automatic rifle. Jimmy had been quiet the whole time. Finally, he attempted every deft move that he tried before and failed. I held fire waiting for the precise moment.
"Keep your eyes on the boulder, Jimmy. It's all mine." Had I looked up I might have seen Jimmy looking at his little brother JJ standing behind me. Jimmy just froze with his hand cupped over the boulder. It would be the easiest target yet. Suddenly I felt a warm flow over the back of my neck. JJ had peed down my back. I rose up in shock while Jimmy laughed hysterically.
"You little bastard," I yelled. JJ was too young to smack, and he ran inside the house. I wanted to sock Jimmy, but I rushed home to shower and told my mother. She just shrugged and said they were a different kind of people.
A young man who was sitting in the audience next to his bride raised his hand. "Andrew, our youngsters and teenagers don't remember what it was like to live in a neighborhood. They cannot understand people living next to each other as separate living units. They ask us how it was that they could live independently right next door to a neighbor that they may or may not be friends. We have explained the use of money and the economy, but few of us have any memories of what it would be like to live in a tract home, or how you resolved disputes. Maybe you could tell us about neighborhood living."
"Oh, my goodness. Where should I begin? First, no one could truly rely on your neighbors to help in a time of crisis. Mostly, neighbors did help their neighbors up to a point. If the mother or father took ill and died, the survivors could not move in with their neighbors. They would have to plead their case to the government, or they would have to move away and live with a relative, perhaps a long ways away. In those days children moved far away from their parents. Disputes between neighbors would simmer for years until one of the disputes would escalate to a level that the police would get involved. We had no group meetings to resolve these disputes in those days. In my own case, we had a neighboring house on our right that had only ten feet separating our bathroom window from their kitchen window. On that side, two of our bedrooms matched up with two of their bedrooms. In the summertime, when the windows were down, we could hear plainly all their problems and day-to-day living as they could ours. We were privy to all their fights and family violence as they were of ours. Consequently, we avoided any contact with them. On the left side of the house, we had a small patio and a fence that separated our patio with our neighbor's patio. For years my mother maintained a feud with this family over some trivial matter, and yet as children we were friends with their children and went it and out of both houses. It was strange. Now that you have me thinking about my childhood neighborhood, let me describe these people.
"Tract homes are a study and contrast human fragility. Someone suggested that authors create extreme examples in juxtaposing characters. I am not so sure that writers exaggerate. In my own case, our neighborhood was made up of a lot of crazy, dysfunctional families. Twenty-eight families lived on three short streets in Hill Grove's first tract home development. You would never run into these families on family television shows like the Nelson Family or Leave It to Beaver. Hidden away in each house were some real horror stories.
"The Mad Dutchman lived just outside the tract. He was a grouchy old man who spoke with a thick accent and wore wooden shoes outside. He did not like children to pass by his house while he worked in his tulip garden. When we were small he would terrify my friends and I. He would yell across the street and accuse us of stealing the fruit from his trees. It was true that we raided fruit from neighboring trees in the vicinity during the summer, but even the local teenagers stayed off his property. He was a sour man who one day went berserk and nearly beat his wife to death. He went to prison. His flower beds died, and then we children realized that we had never seen the wife outside.
"Across the street from the Mad Dutchman lived a shoe repairman. His wife worked in the local library. They had an older daughter living with them, and they all seemed so proper and dignified in their custom built home from the 1930's. They seemed very private. The outside of their house was covered in vines and shrubs and the large willow trees kept prying eyes disappointed. Unlike his wife who was dour and certainly unfriendly in the library, her husband was a polite and friendly shoe repairman. His shop behind the house was spacious and filled with large, machinery befitting a shop in a large city, not in a rural community. From time to time, the shoe repairman would just disappear without explanation from his wife, who would take your repair ticket and charge you for the repairs or return shoes un-repaired. It seemed to happen once or twice, and then one day he was gone and the shop was closed. Everyone forgot about the shoe repairman. A couple of years later, his wife looked out the window and saw a light in the shop. Her husband was back and tidying up his shop. He stayed for a while and repaired shoes, and then with no explanation from himself or his wife or his adult daughter, he was gone forever.
"The very first house on Ridgeway, the vertical stem of the tract, was occupied by a timid and extremely thin milkman. His wife was younger, and I considered her attractive, much too attractive to be married to a shy, mild deliveryman who went to work very early in the morning and went to bed very early in the evening. He was reclusive by nature. They had an older son in the Navy and a Danny who was a year or two younger than me. Danny was an easily manipulated kid who was constantly taking advantage of by neighborhood boys, including myself. He would take the outfield in a game of baseball, he would go sneak some cookies from his mother's kitchen or he would just quietly go home if you told him you didn't want to play with him anymore. He never seemed to mind or protest. I would hang around him for some time until I grew bored with him, and then I would stop playing with him for great lengths of time. He never minded, or so it seemed. Months later if you called to him to join in a game of 500 or kick-the-can, he would join, as if we had parted company the previous day. My father was greatly troubled by Danny. When he would leave for work at 6 am in the dark, he would see Danny walking the streets or just standing in the shadows. No matter how early he got up, he would see Danny. When he revealed this information to my mother and me, I didn't know what to say or think. I was in sixth or seventh grade. It was unfathomable to me that a boy that age could get up that early and walk the street before school. I never mentioned or inquired of Danny about his nocturnal wanderings. It was too private, too strange. By the time I was in high school, Danny had become an invisible, solitary young man.
"We had an Okie family move in across the street from Danny's house a year or two after everyone moved into the neighborhood. It was the first home to be re-sold, and the prospect of a new family occupying the house was exciting. We eagerly waited to see what the configuration of children would be. The husband was a tall, lanky man who wore a cap right out of the thirties. He was a painter, and he and his wife had a passel of snot-nosed kids. I was repulsed by the whole lot, especially when I found out that one of the younger girls was dared to eat shit for a dollar, and she did. While new home construction was under way surrounding our track, the father was stealing construction materials and lumber until his entire house was filled up. He got busted and the family moved away leaving the house vacant for some time.
"This family was replaced by a welfare family. The father was a tyrant, who was constantly in pain from amputated legs and cancer that was slowly killing him. His special medical bed was in the living room where he was strategically located next to the hall where he could smack his children and stepchildren when they walked through the narrow passage. The mother was a slatternly woman devoid of humor or joy, taking care of perhaps eight children, all of whom were named with the beginning letter R. Everything she cooked was fried in animal lard. She bought huge blocks of lard and always had one in easy reach. The kitchen was plastered in yellowish, brown grease which seemed to be splattered everywhere. I actually became nauseated each time I passed through the kitchen to reach the backyard with Roger. The kitchen door was broken, and hundred of flies walked across dirty dishes and hovered in the air. It was like something out of a horror movie. I was in seventh or eighth grade when Roger showed me a trick that would become one of his standard parlor tricks that he showed off to every new person he met. He was a fat kid with large rolls of fat on his stomach.
"Stay here. You got to see this." Roger went back into the kitchen. I looked around the backyard which was devoid of grass. In its place were the littered remains of broken toys, torn garments and garbage. I was ready to bolt when he emerged from the kitchen. He had taken his shirt off inside. He was laughing in anticipation and plopped himself down on a lawn chair. Leaning back in the chair, his chin rested on his chest, he pulled up a massive roll of fat. He was giggling the whole time. With his other hand he spread a finger tip of rotten grease on his belly button and then sucked up his gut as high as he could.
"I watched in stunned horror at Roger's belly uncertain what he was doing. As the flies circled his belly, I knew the feat he was attempting. When a fly landed in his belly button, he sighed and gently let his fat roll across his belly button like a Venus Fly Trap. Each time he would roar with laughter when he lifted up his fat roll and let the fly escape. It was too much. I was becoming more selective with my friends, and Roger was making me uncomfortable. I hung around with him for a couple of years until he became a pathetic beggar who ingratiated himself on others by performing stupid antics like doing a flip off of a diving board and deliberately performing a belly flop at a party --anything for another beer. By tenth grade I no longer associated with him.
"His brother Ralph was a high school drop-out a few years older than us. He couldn't hold a job and hung out at Tina's all day, or so it seemed. He would sneak into his home late at night to avoid his stepfather, and his mother would feed him with the provision that he be out of the house before his step father got up in the morning. At seventeen he looked aged and very unhealthy. He had a scraggily beard that he would pick at until he had scabs and bald spots. After many beatings and unbearable living conditions, he ran away. Not too far I might add. Tina and my mother befriended him. My mom let him stay in our camping trailer while Jane worked with social services. He was, nonetheless, turned over to the juvenile authorities and classified as a run-away and incorrigible. After a short time in a juvenile detention center, he was released back to his mother. He left home again and drifted into drug dealing to support his own habit. He was rapidly killing himself. I never learned what happened to him, but I am sure he never saw 21.
"The oldest son was Raymond. Raymond was a character right out of a Steinbeck novel. He was a handsome young man who had impeccable hygiene. He worked after school and bought his own clothes, which he washed and ironed. He wore kaki pants and wool shirts. He never tucked his shirt inside his pants preferring to show off all the neatly pressed creases down the back and side of the shirt. He had wavy strawberry colored hair and loved music. The old man left Raymond alone. Raymond never let his step-father upset him, and he never resorted to retaliation like Roger would do once he was out of his step-father's reach. The level of insults and invective screaming from the old man and Roger gave me an impression of what an insane asylum would be like. Ralph was immune to it all. On numerous occasions I watched as Ramon showed compassion to his step father and treated him with a measure of respect. One day I was drawn into a conversation with Raymond and the old man while I waited for Roger to get ready for an outing we had planned. This miserable son-of-a-bitch was actually interesting to talk to, and I enjoyed his company until the drugs wore out and I watched him become a fiend again. Ramon gave me a nod that it was time to go, and it was at that moment that I saw the greatness of Raymond, who was perhaps 17 at the time.
"In his junior year Raymond bought a beautiful late 40's convertible, either a Buick or a Pontiac. And even though he had a girlfriend, he took Roger and me to a number of movies. Since his girlfriend didn't like musicals, he took Roger and me to see Porgy and Bess. I was immediately drawn into the movie, as was Raymond. We both had to shut Roger up, as he was making stupid comments. On the way home Raymond turned to me and said that he knew I would appreciate the movie. I was in eighth grade and he was a junior, perhaps a senior, and yet we talked about the movie at a level that I had never talked about a movie before. He was a gem and a prince. He later married and did everything he could to help his brother Roger, but each time Roger would take advantage of him.
"Next to Roger's house was the Larson family. The parents spoke with a Swedish accent. They did not associate with anyone and built a fence around their front yard with a wrought-iron gate to the entrance of their home. Plain looking people, they produced a beautiful daughter who was, in my opinion, completely sheltered from the world. A couple houses up the street was our cul-de-sac street consisting of six houses. Aside from the Potocki family, our family was probably the next most dysfunctional family of the original homeowners, but it was really difficult to tell. The Anderson family across the street was intriguing. The old man was a welder and a collector. His garage was packed full of antiques and collectables, including a stuffed Eagle, which even at that time was illegal. His wife Alice was a friend of my mother. When we attended Catholic grade school, Alice's only child, Barbara, joined us in our daily commute to school. She had large curls and was pampered by her mother.
"One day while I was in the Army, my mother witnessed the old man chase Alice out on the street brandishing a butcher knife. The authorities took him away to an insane asylum for years, and Alice had to go to work in the new plastic factory which had been the old Sunkist plant. But the most interesting of all the neighborhood characters was Brian Nelson, the boy I saw madly pedaling across the parking lot on my first visit to Hill Grove.
"Brian looked, and talked and acted like Eddie Haskell on the television show, Leave It to Beaver. I know. I know. None of you survivors are old enough to remember those early television shows.... Brian was very smart. He and his sister attended Catholic school. Both parents were professionals of some sort. They had wall-to-wall carpet, which no one in my circle of friends had, and they had antiques. Brian was devious, and I knew that any mischief I got involved in with him would go unnoticed, unreported and unpunished. He was slick. He was also smart enough not to involve any of his followers in his neighborhood burglaries or his penchant for peeping into neighbor's windows late summer nights. He was extremely manipulative and far too clever for a sixth grader. I knew he was intellectually superior to me, but I was smart enough to withdraw my friendship when my gut instinct said, "Get the hell out this kid's world." I did, however, learn the basic tenants of capitalism from Brian.
"During the fifties kids were expected to "Go outside and play." Yes, there were cartoons on after school and American Bandstand, but my mother didn't want her children to be sitting in front of the "Boob Tube." So, now instead of the boob tube you've got the boob storyteller. Most of the mother's felt the same way. After school they were finishing up their chores and getting dinner ready, which in our case was 6 PM. My father would like to arrive home just in time to open a can of beer and sit down to the table for dinner. If you went to a friend's house, the mother would always answer the door. It was considered rude of children to run to the door ahead of a parent. "Can Johnny come out and play?" was usually responded by "Andrew, get your jacket and go out and play with David." Most of the time, however, I had only to walk a block or less to find kids my age playing out on the street or on the front yards. In those days of Southern California living, seasons were established for kites, marbles and yo-yo's.
"Little League Baseball was in its infancy, so children had a lot of time to play their own neighborhood games, such as 500, a batting-catching game. The batter up would hit the ball and a group of boys would jostle and push for the best position based on the batter's known batting ability. A fly ball caught was 100 points. A one-bouncer was 50 points. Anything else was considered a grounder and worth only 25 points. When you acquired 500 points, it was your turn to challenge the batter. The batter would lay the bat down full length on the pavement and step back. The challenger would wind up and fire the softball like a bowling ball straight at the bat. When the ball hit the bat it would fly up in the air. If the batter caught the ball in the air, he would continue batting and the challenger would lose 100 points. Most of the time the batters were happy to relinquish the batting role eager to rejoin the melee of the street action, especially if there were five or six kids in the field.
"So, that reminds me. Last year I taught 500 to this group. Are you still playing?"
Most of the children in the dining hall yelled out "Yes". One boy yelled out, "Keep telling the story, Teach."
"OK. The games were intense, and everyone cringed when some mother would come out on her front porch and yell out some kid's name and at the word "dinner!" We would know that the game would fall apart within twenty minutes with more mothers or siblings yelling "Dinner!" Of all the games we played from fourth grade to eighth grade, marbles ruled! Throughout my school years including high school, I was a mediocre athlete. However, I was an exceptionally good marble player. In fourth grade I was runner-up for my entire school, grades three through sixth. When the top player had to go out of town, I was called upon to represent Durrefy Elementary School at a city wide regional tournament. It was thrilling, even though I was eliminated during the first round by fifth and six graders who were amazing. I stayed all day watching these games called "Pots." The game, developed by the Chinese centuries before, was simple. Now, let me give you just a short description because tomorrow I will teach you all the rules.
"Draw a circle in dirt after first removing any debris. A packed, clay surface was best. Concrete was too fast and asphalt pavement interfered with accuracy. Each player would ante up a set number of marbles. Someone in the playing field would take all the marbles in their cupped hands and drop them in the center of the playing circle. Any marble going out or touching the line was placed dead center in the circle. The first shooter had a great advantage, as the goal was to shoot a marble (a shooter, as in my best shooter or my aggie) at a marble in the circle thereby knocking it out. The marble knocked out of the circle was a keeper. You kept the keepers in an empty pocket. When the last marble was knocked out of the circle, players would count up their keepers, and the player with the most keepers would declare himself the winner and strut his stuff. The order of shooting was determined by lagging your shooter to a line. Whoever got closest to the line was the first shooter etc. Lagging was a skill I practiced almost daily during marble season.
"I didn't know of another player who practiced lagging, which was downright stupid because when you lost your marbles (as in your count, your lifetime winnings), a good player could go into a depression that would last for days or until he got his count back to where it had been. Hence the term, "Loosing your marbles" or going insane. Now, how the hell did I leave my Survival Story to be talking about marbles," he asked his audience.
A man in the front table spoke up, "Andrew, you were telling us about a weird kid named Brian, just like you told the boys around the campfire."
"Yeah, yeah. I haven't forgot Brian, but thanks for the reminder." The audience laughed good-naturedly.
"Good players, like me, soon found that we were banned from neighborhood games so we had to wander around into unfamiliar neighborhoods to enter games. Sometimes fights or squabbles would break out when you cleaned out a big pot in another neighborhood. You would be challenged that your knuckles had touched the line, and therefore, all your winnings on that shooting round would have to be returned to the pot. Kids would push and shout and fall to their knees to find a knuckle imprint touching the line. At the beginning of the game, players would have to decide if "Eagle Claws" would be acceptable. I always preferred Eagle Claws, a position where the shooting hand rested on top of the non-shooting hand. Your fingers rarely touched the line, and you had the advantage of leaning over the line in the air. Most boys never objected to Eagle Claws because you had to hit a marble square on; otherwise, your shooter would take a hop and leave the circle. It was uncanny how good I was shooting from the Eagle Claw position, as well as resting my hand on the ground.
"The first shooter has the advantage. If you hit a marble square and your shooter stops dead and sends the keeper out of the circle, you can shoot again. Like the game of pool, once your shooter is in the circle you keep knocking marbles out until you miss. In school you were not allowed to play for keeps, which was just another un-enforced rule of the playground. By eighth grade I had acquired over a thousand marbles that I had won, along with close to 130 boulders. Besides Pots there were two other games we played, Poison and Set-Ups.
"Poison was a game for sissies. A player would dig five cupped holes in the dirt; the fifth hole in the middle of the square was deemed the "Poison" hole. Everyone would ante up in the "Poison" hole. You would lag for start. The goal was simple. You had to shoot from one hole to the next in a clock-wise rotation. When you missed a hole, your shooter would remain in the position it rolled to a stop until your next turn. However, the following players could hit your shooter far out of the playing field and not lose a turn. After circling the four corner holes a set number of times, the shooter would shoot to the Poison Hole. If his marble landed in the hole, he won all the marbles, end of game. If he missed, however, he had to start all over with the rotations. Naturally, everyone following would shoot at the near winner if he was close to the hole. Sometimes the near winner would be driven all over the backyard like a swarm of angry bees chasing an intruder away from their hive. It was too cutthroat and relied on little shooting skill so I generally passed up those games.
"Set-Ups was a game for chumps. In my entire career as a marble hot shot, I only bought one small bag of marbles, and that was the "Cat Eyes" when they first came out while I was in fourth grade. I never bought a boulder in my life. Every boulder I had was won in a game of Set-Ups. Some spoiled kid whose mother bought him marbles would sit on a sidewalk and spread opens his legs. He would establish a shooting line, usually fifteen to twenty feet back. Shooters would ante up one marble to play the game, if there were any hot shots in the field. Lacking any hot shots, players would walk away if they were asked to ante up. The kid with the boulder would carefully set the boulder down between his legs covering it with his hand. If the kid was a mean little shit, he would move the boulder around and then suddenly lift his hand. Ideally, the kid with the new boulder would attract at least six or seven shooters or he would declare no game and get up and move away. In 1957 a boulder could be traded for six good marbles.
"By seventh and eighth grade I could hit the boulder with my first shot. I would yell out "Mine!" and lunge for the boulder, as in some cases the boulder would be hit after my first shot. I was soon banned from all Set-Up games. "Andrew's out!" they would yell. I would sneak around and wait for a game to be set up. I would bend over and sneak up behind the front line and fire between other shooters. If they didn't see me and yell, "Andrew's out" the win would be mine. Sometimes the Set-Up kid and the entire line would wait until I left. My life-time count never included marbles that I won in Set-Ups. My pride would not let me count ten to twenty marbles from a bunch of marble flunkies. I kept my life-time winnings in an old fishing tackle box with the best boulders in the top tray.
"Now, about Brian. I took great pride in beating Brian Nelson regularly in marbles. It frustrated him greatly, and I reveled in each victory. Finally, he too quit playing me. Instead he used me as a pawn in his own game to increase his lifetime count. By this time I was obsessed with my count and had to start ranging out looking for games where someone didn't yell, "Andrew's out" or "Archer is out!" His offer was uncanny, brilliant, a masterpiece of childhood cleverness. Since we attended two different Catholic schools, he offered to provide me with start up capital, ten marbles a day. Any daily loss was his, but I would have to split my winnings 50-50 with him. He had absolute trust in my honesty. On the few days that I would lose or have a poor net gain, I would fret and grieve the loss. But here was an opportunity to win with no chance of a loss. For weeks I would hand over half of my winnings until I realized I had succumbed to greed, since I rarely ever lost. During marble season I would go to school with ten marbles and two shooters. Sometimes both pockets would be stuffed with marbles at the end of the day as I tallied up my "count." I can not remember the actual conversation when I broke the news to him that our partnership was over. I do remember that we were both pissed, and this break in our partnership began a rivalry that nearly ended in death.
"Early one morning I awoke in terror. The invasion had started. A few blocks from our home the greatest tracked vehicles known to man were off-loaded and fired up to conquer Sunkist orange groves. Like a formation of tanks, they lined up with their monstrous diesel engines rattling. Spewing black exhaust, they waited for the signal to advance and annihilate thousands of mature orange trees. The clamor and rattling of horse power echoed around the hills.
"I gathered in the kitchen in shock, asking for an explanation. My parents were hardly talking. They moved to the front porch in the early morning light. They, the invaders, surprised us in a dawn attack. The orange trees that completely surrounded us were to be destroyed to build 380 new tract homes, none of which would have a single tree in the front yard or backyard. None were to be spared. Fireside Homes -- how apropos. By the time I got home from school all the trees had been knocked down and pushed up in huge piles. They were already burning. For days we could barely breathe. Ash covered our cars, our lawns, and for a week my mother could not do our laundry and use the clothes line in our backyard. In the name of the father, the son and our holy progress, I yearned to move back to Lee Vinning or Bishop. It was the end of an idyllic country lifestyle that I would fleetingly chase my entire life.
"After the ashes were spread, a secondary force of gigantic earth movers shaped the landscape. They leveled and graded the tract. This was followed by the ditch digging machines to install septic tanks and storm drain systems. The maze of ditches inspired a neighborhood dirt clod war. It started out conventionally with clearly defined codes of conduct, but like all wars the spiraling violence in the face of a challenging adversary meant that the end would justified the mean. And this mean was none other than Brian Nelson, a very serious foe who was out of control and dangerous. I never had a fight with Brian. Both of us knew that I could take him. What I worried about was the retaliation factor if I ever beat him up. I knew he had a coolness about him that wasn't natural. One day we were playing Mumblee Peg on his front yard. It is a simple game. Two players face each other about three feet apart. Each player has a pocketknife that he throws close to his opponent's feet. If it is more than a foot away when the knife sticks in the ground, the throwing player gains no advantage. If it is less than 12 inches from either foot, the opposing player must slide his foot across until it touches the knife. He must then reach down, pull out the knife and hand it back to the thrower, who would get to throw again. If the knife didn't stick, the thrower would lose his turn. The object of the game was simple -- keep your opponent stretching out his legs until he could no longer keep his balance and would fall.
"I made a cross the body throw and stuck my knife right in the toe section of Brian's tennis shoe. To borrow an old cliché, the knife was buried right to the hilt. I was horrified. I knew I was in BIG trouble. Brian calmly reached down and pulled out my knife and handed it to me. He calmly walked over to the front porch, sat down, and slowly removed his shoe. "You missed," he said. "The blade went between the toes. I only need a band-aid to stop the bleeding."
"After a few days of running the ditches and throwing dirt clods, the war became serious. By this time we had three warriors in each opposing camp. The construction company had begun to drop forms for the foundations across "no man's land." The war commenced each day after school, and my side was winning. One afternoon Brian caught me deep in a trench and clobbered me. It was a reckless move on my part. I was bored with lobbing dirt clods thirty feet to a barricade of concrete forms where Brian and his soldiers took cover. One night I built small cannon out of two-by-fours and plywood. The barrel was square. Off to the side of the barrel was a two-by-four with wheels and a footrest. Attached to each side of the cannon was a long piece of inner tube, which created a large sling shot.
"It was not really that efficient. Half the load of dirt clods would hit the side of the square barrel and ricochet everywhere. Nonetheless, it lobbed a hell of a lot of clods to the enemy, and their General was outraged. I had successfully launched a secret weapon, and Brian was not to be out done. The following afternoon after school we met at the same spot. The cannon was propped up at an angle so that the grape shot would clear our barricade. We had already calibrated the distance. We had stones ready to throw. When we saw the enemy, we taunted them and insulted them. They never said a word. They walked up behind their barricade carrying long sticks with large rubber bands knotted together.
"I yelled, "Fire!" and the battle waged fiercely. I had made inner tube slings for my two companions so that they could sling rocks and clods over our barricade without exposing their head to enemy fire. We were making such a racket that we didn't notice that the enemy was holding their fire. "Hold up," I said. We slowly peeked over the barricade. Out of the corner of my eye I watched something shoot past Jimmy's head at an amazing speed. It went by so fast I couldn't identify the projectile. "I hissed, "Duck." "What the hell are they doing? Did you see that, Jimmy?" Jimmy just shook his head no, but at that moment we were under serious fire. One of the incoming bullets stuck the top lip of the barricade and fell at our feet. Brian was slinging large nails at deadly speed using the sticks with rubber bands. The nail boxes were right next to the forms. It was deadly fire. I had only two choices. I could surrender or call for a cease fire. I called out the latter. Brian called out, "Cease fire!" We both stood up facing each other. I challenged him to continue the battle on our street after dinner. He accepted. We both knew that that the game was out of control, and I had to find a solution that would save face for both of us. I had the distinct feeling that Brian would put a nail through someone's brain and go to a children's prison without dread or remorse.
"I knew that without barricades neither side would fire at each other. We would stand facing each other stupidly until a parent intervened. I knew I was in for a grounding of two to three weeks, but I knew someone was going to die or become seriously injured. Without parent intervention, I would be building Brian's nail guns the next day. After dinner the six of us met in the middle of the street directly in front of my house. We had our cannons and slings. Brian and his friends had their rubber band, nail launchers. We no sooner squared up when Gerald Potocki dropped his beer on the front porch and charged into our midst. Mr. Potocki didn't bother lecturing. He grabbed all the weapons and threw them up on his driveway without saying a word. After the last batch was discarded, he walked back to the group. His son Jimmy was on my side. We were all sick and fearful of a neighborhood parent meeting and the punishment that would follow. Mr. Potocki walked up to his son Jimmy and whacked him in the back of the neck nearly knocking him down to the asphalt. Jimmy's father turned to us and said, "Now, get the hell out of here, and don't ever pull this crap again!" We scattered. He never told my parents. Nobody died, and I made a clean break from Brian.
A young boy who sat leaning against his father's legs interrupted the story. "Will you be teaching us all those marble games before you leave?"
"Yes, I will, and I will be leaving enough marbles for all of you youngsters, not to mention introducing you to some new games before I leave. So, I have been giving you the long version of my story. Many of you are too young to know what life was like in the Olden Days, especially my olden days. Sometimes I spend more time on the Olden Days than I do the Dark Days. Should I continue lapsing into the past or get on with my survival story?"
One of the elders raised his hand. "Andrew, we have taught our children parables. We are greatly alarmed with the recent events and a War Lord within striking distance of Alliance lands. Did you intend that this story be a parable?"
"It is horrible to contemplate conflict so soon after the collapse of the Earth's populations. My story is a childhood story, but if there is truth in that story than it should be examined later. I am well aware of the shock that has spread throughout the Alliance, but we have only to look at ants to understand our present condition. Ant colonies, like our communal ranches, are mostly harmonious. Everyone does their job for the good of all. In the ant world, however, growth is rarely achieved without bloodshed and loss. They are constantly fighting other colonies, mostly over territory. Their internal strength, however, is their well-developed, altruistic practices, and it is this that we must take comfort. If my story has a moral, it is this. Note that the two warring packs of boys, of which I was the leader of one, met openly on our street to force parents to intervene. Perhaps with all that we have suffered, opposing groups will step back or ask a third party to mediate their dispute.
"OK. Enough about my childhood during the 1950's, which in looking over this crowd I can't spot a single person who shared those times. So, enough of ancient history. But my point is that life in the old days wasn't as nice as what you may read in books. Just think about how many loonies lived in my small neighborhood. Let's take a stretch break and I will continue with my story."
Chapter 4
"The next morning after breakfast we loaded into one of the vans at the lodge and headed to Big Creek, just outside the town of Victor. The forest service road climbs up the valley past apple orchards, above the rolling incline of pastureland, and winds around an abandoned mine. Reaching the top of the grade, the mouth of the canyon is a chasm of towering granite. The diagonal cleft plummets to the creek below, the boundary line between public and private lands. I pulled the van over in a small parking area right in front of a plunging precipice. The view up the narrow, glaciated valley is spectacular, and everyone spilled out of the van to inch their way to the edge of the cliff. From the flat shelf, we could look straight down across a two hundred yard lava rock garden. A few hundred feet down we could see the remnants of an old wooden irrigation sluice box that carried water around the canyon wall to water apple trees nearly a hundred years ago. In front of us a lone, lodge pole pine leaned against the granite wall. Its branches, with the exception of the canopy, were broken off from each succeeding storm that lashed its trunk against the cliff.
"Gentlemen, the creek down there is where we begin our lesson." When the last 'no way' and 'bull crap' echoed down the canyon, I turned to the young men and said, "If my two boys could make it down there when they were six and eight, you big boys can make it."
Marvin turned to Wayne who stood grinning next to me. "He's kidding right?"
"Wrong," said Wayne. "He's serious."
"Holy, shit!" stuttered Brad. "How are we supposed to get down from here?'
"See that lodge pole pine right in front of you, look at the base and you will see a feint trail leading down to the rock garden." The boys were incredulous and started laughing. "We climb down the branches of the tree to the base of this rock we're standing on. I continued" Although I had actually fooled a fishing client years ago, the boys weren't buying it. "Ok, if you look right over there, you will see a gap behind those trees. We will actually slide on our butts until we hit the rock garden. That's the easy part. Walking across that boulder field is the real danger, and I am serious. Don't jump. Test your footing on each rock and be prepared to shift or move fast if one of those boulders spins or pivots. Get your gear and follow Wayne. I'll be the rotten egg. It's been years since I climbed down this slope so don't eat lunch without me. Rod tips in the air!"
The boys grabbed their daypacks and fly rods and inched their way down the cliff with Wayne taking the lead. Scott tried to walk upright and soon discovered that the declination on the mountainside was just as steep as it looked from above. The loose dirt brought him back to earth with a hard thump. They were across the rockslide and into the trees down by the creek before I had returned from locking the van, setting up my fly rod and slinging on my daypack. I met them at the bottom twenty minutes later and had to suffer their laughs of derision. After a long rest, I began my lesson. I sat on a large rock with my feet in the cold, mountain water. The slight breeze and the gurgling from the creek kept the boys leaning toward me as I deliberately lowered my voice in that wondrous, outdoor classroom.
"This is a creek. Any smaller and you can call it a crick. For the most part, it isn't wide enough to accommodate two casters, but you can take turns and play leapfrog. The basics for creek fishing are following six simple steps. First of all, you have to get wet! Position yourself in the middle of the creek, and keep moving upstream after two or three casts to a likely holding spot. Second, keep your fly floating at a natural speed. Better yet, keep your fly along the seams and in slow pocket water at a slower speed. Third, unless you are using a Hopper, present your fly gently on the water. Four, keep excess fly line off the water. Five, and most important, don't let the current drag your fly under. Better yet, keep your fly line off the water entirely, and keep your fly high and dry! Six, keep a low profile and make the first cast count!
"Ok, I checked my lunch sack that we were given this morning, and I noticed an especially large chocolate chip cookie. I am willing to bet someone my cookie against theirs that they will miss the first two fish in a row right here in front of us." Right there I said pointing with my rod. "Any takers?"
"How do we know a fish is where you just pointed?" asked Marvin.
"I know that there is at least two or three fish where I just pointed. What do you say, Marvin, would you like that cookie of mine?"
"What if it doesn't come up for my fly?"
"It will," I said. "And remember you have to miss two fish to lose the bet. All you have to do is catch a little cutthroat and release it with your hands."
"Go for it!" said Scott.
"Wayne, how hard is this?"
"You said you were an experienced angler. Andrew is right. There are probably three or four small cutts within twenty feet of where you are standing. When one of them rises to your fly, raise the rod tip and set the hook. It's that easy," Wayne said.
"Am I being set up?" implored Marvin.
"Nope," said Wayne. "I'd go for that extra cookie, and then maybe Andrew can climb out of this canyon at the end of the day. It would sort of be like a win-win for both of you."
"Ok, Andrew, you're on." Andrew was closest to Marvin and gave him a high-five.
I assured Marvin that I would most certainly take his cookie if he missed two fish in a row. "Alright, I want you to stand right behind that flat rock. Since you are in the middle of the creek, and the trout are facing upstream along that current seam, all you have to do is make a short cast right in front of you. All you are going to do is dab your fly and follow the six steps. Start with step six and crouch. Now take a few steps forward and fish that riffle right down the middle of the seam."
Marvin crouched down real low and moved up the creek a few feet. He had tied on a Royal Wulff so he would have no problem following the fly as it drifted back to him. Everyone was hushed in anticipation. Marvin made his first cast and stuck his fly on a branch off to his right. Everyone laughed.
"Don't move," I yelled. "Stay crouched and ease backwards. Now, raise up your rod tip and pull down all the line until your fly is actually in the first guide. Now shake the rod tip gently. There you go. You just saved yourself a fly. We won't count that cast, Marvin. Get back into position and cast again."
Marvin moved up to his former position. The water swirled around his knees and he had to lean on some rocks to keep his balance. I looked at the boys lined up the creek snickering. "Ok, you guys, win or lose, you are going to critique Marvin's efforts using the six principles of creek fishing. Catch a big one, Marvin."
Marvin made his second cast and plopped the fly about a foot from the seam. "Gently lift up your fly and drop it right in the slot this time." He did and in a flash a trout broke through the surface film and dove back under the water. Marvin had not moved. He stood up stunned as the line floated back and wrapped around his feet.
"He missed it!" said Marvin.
"He missed it," I replied. "I don't think so. Did you see him come up from the bottom or did you only see him when he broke the water, took the fly in his mouth, spit it out as something foreign and headed back home. All in a split second I might add."
"I only saw the splash on top, and then he disappeared."
"Well, buddy, where are your polarized sun glasses to cut the glare?"
"Oh, man, I left them back in the cabin."
"Strike one," I said. "Marvin, get the next fish and you will be rewarded with great accolades, your peers will bow to your superiority, and I will reward you with a big chocolate chip cookie. Don't let the pressure get to you, Marvin. Follow the six steps."
Marvin crouched again and cast his fly. This time he raised his rod tip as I had shown him so that the fly drifted back to him at the natural speed of the current. He was ready. The fly had drifted no more than a foot when a small trout darted out from behind a jutting rock along the shore and slammed his fly. Marvin was wired so tightly that his reflexes matched the trout's speed. He flung up his rod tip so fast and high that the trout flew into the air and landed downstream. The fish was gone, and I had won, fair and square, an extra cookie. Marvin redeemed himself on the next cast and caught a nine-inch rainbow. The boys were up on their feet ready to fish.
"Wayne, you take Marvin and Scott up the creek a ways and help them if they need it. I'll start here with Brad, Andrew and Dan. When you're ready for lunch, just hold back and wait for us to catch up. The day went exceedingly well. No one in the group caught less than a dozen fish in three hours of fishing. I kept my word and called in the bet, but I only ate half of Marvin's cookie. It had been another rewarding day on a Montana creek, which we had all to ourselves. That night the boys had free roam of the lodge facilities. Of the three lodges in Three River Resorts, the Bitterroot Lodge could not be compared to the other lodges. The two partners had bought the ranch years ago when it was a hunting guide school. Situated right on the river, they had added a number of small cabins that catered to a select group of fly fisherman during the summer and fall. They leased out the hunting school business to a local outfitter who taught backcountry hunting and horsemanship along with guided back trips throughout the summer. My students stayed in a small bunkhouse behind the corrals.
Well, this is the part of the story that my boys got in a little trouble. You youngsters share a different life. Most of you are orphans who were taken in by the Alliance and picked to join this Alliance farm. Some of you barely remember your parents, but you have been adopted and loved by most if not all of the commune members. My young charges were sent to this camp by their parents for a summer adventure. In the Olden Days we had a lot of problems with alcohol abuse, both in the adult population and the younger generations. Drug and alcohol addictions created a lot of social problems, problems that we, at least for now, do not have to worry about.
Well, let's stop here for the night. I'll finish tomorrow, but I have to tell you that the story takes on tragic proportions from this point on."
The communal members drifted back to their rooms while the Entertainment Committee members stayed behind to re-set the chairs and tables for breakfast. Andrew stretched and kidded with a man much younger than he that audible sounds of pain or discomfort should be stifled if he was to convince everyone that he was still in his 60's.
Chapter 6
"Good evening."
"Good evening," responded the workers and the children.
"After last night's storytelling, I am sure the work committee struggled on whether to invite me back. Tonight I promise to be more succinct, partly because of the nature of the events, partly because it is a painful chapter in my life, and partly because if I go into too many details I am sure I will become morose, perhaps maudlin. To clarify the events, let me say that as soon as the boys arrived at the resort, we were torn whether we should continue the program with the events unfolding worldwide. We called all of the boys' parents, but they followed the plea of our President to resume our normal activities. As many of you may recall, he said, 'we will not allow fear to consume our lives; we will not allow enemies to demoralize us or change our daily lives. We will be resolute in our defense to all internal and external threats. Our fortitude will be manifested in going to work each day, sending our children to school, worshipping in our churches and synagogues and continuing with our daily routines.' Well, at least it was something like that. Had he known or we known what was to follow, I for one would not have planned a trip into the wilderness with five young men.
I would have stayed with my family. It was beyond anyone's comprehension that a chain of independent events could threaten humanity. On Monday after the rodeo incident, I decided to put it all behind me and take the boys on their pack trip into the South Fork of the Flathead River in the Bob Marshall wilderness. I had no idea that we would face death and then discover that the world was ending. Before I continue, I want to acknowledge that most of you saw greater loss and deprivation than I. It is why we invite members, when they are ready, to tell their story to the group. For some of you, there will never be healing, but we know the power of catharsis. We know the steps in grieving. I have never fully told my story. It pales in comparison to the suffering most of you have experienced. Nonetheless, suffering cannot be placed on a scale like pain. Like most of you I tend to recycle this nightmare over and over.
"Well, let me continue where I left off with my young outdoorsmen. That following Monday we packed up and headed for the Bob Marshall Wilderness to fish the South Fork of the Flathead River. My two donkeys, Buddy and Banjo, were in the trailer. Wayne drove the Suburban and Scott and Dan rode with me. Since we had got a late start in the morning, we didn't reach Meadow Creek Trailhead until dusk. Fifty miles of dirt road from Hungry Horse to Spotted Bear Ranger station shook the trucks across the washboard road. I felt real sorry for my two donkeys, as they had to brace themselves the entire bumpy road. When we got to the trailhead, each camping spot had a manger and a tie-down post. I had brought carrots for the donkeys, but I had not brought enough for the treatment each one of the boys wanted to give them. A couple of the boys pitched tents, while the rest just slept in their sleeping bags on top of drop cloths. I had mistakenly thought that I could sleep on just some hay I had collected, but by the middle of the night I was sore. When I got up to take a leak, I found that Wayne was also up and giving the donkeys some attention. He was too excited to sleep. He convinced me to take the time to dig through the trailer and find my air mattress. I slept soundly until dawn. We ate a simple breakfast, packed the donkeys and checked each other's packs for proper fit. No one had a pack that weighed over twenty pounds. The donkeys carried all but our personal clothes and fishing gear. Passing over the Gorge Pack Bridge, we saw the raging waters below fed by record-breaking snow pack.
"I had prepared the boys for our first stream crossing. My two donkeys had not crossed a creek over three or four inches deep. When we got to Mid Creek, I told them it would be on-the-job training. Sure enough, they balked. I tried each one separately, but they refused even when I lightly whipped their hocks with a small buggy whip that I carried just for these moments. I said, "OK, we're going to unpack them and carry everything across the creek. If we have a rodeo here, I don't want our supplies and gear floating down the creek. Take off your boots and put on your sneakers.' Everyone crossed over and dropped off their packs and returned for the panniers and duffle bags that were tied down on top of the two panniers. I was holding the two lead ropes. Both of those rascals refused to even get near enough to the water to drink, and it was a hot day and we had already covered at least four miles. Suddenly, I heard a clatter of hooves behind us. I looked up to see an outfitter with a pack team of mules. We were in a creek draw so he didn't see us until he was right upon us. He never slowed down.
"He led that team of about eight mules right past where I sat with one boot on and one boot off. What a clattering reverberation of steel shoes on granite boulders. Even the turned over boulders under the water managed to echo a muted rumble across the narrow canyon walls. They passed by my donkeys within a foot. When the last mule entered the water, the wrangler was already up the embankment and shrouded by pine boughs. I'll be darned if Buddy didn't just jump in right behind the last donkey and follow him straight into the creek. Meanwhile, Banjo spooked and jumped away from the water. There I was with one boot on and one boot off holding donkeys by their lead ropes while they headed in two different directions. When I got them under control, I looked down at my feet. One was wet and one was dry, and you can pretty well guess that the foot with the boot was the one that was wet. Both donkeys crossed the creek without much fanfare, just like they had been doing it all their lives. We crossed Black Bear Creek without incident and camped at the meadow about a quarter of a mile away. We had traveled only eight miles, but those youngsters weren't giving me a hard time about going any further that day. The next day we packed up and hiked six miles past the fork to Black Bear pack bridge and continued up the trail on the east side of the river. Passing Independence Park we rounded a corner far up on the mountain and saw what we had been looking for in both fishing and camping.
"Throughout the two-day hike, we rarely glimpsed the river far below. When we did, it was usually a view that we could gaze down on for less than a hundred yards, and than the trail would wind away from the precipice and fall to the backside of the rim. Rounding the corner about two hundred feet above the water, we could see the gorge open up to a small valley. Directly below us the sparkling water funneled into fast riffles that joined one after another until they compressed to form a Class IV white water section leading into the gorge. Ahead we could see two islands with numerous braids and channels. Best of all we could see shallow, brownish-yellow water sliding over golden rocks and pebbles. Following these lines of water with our eyes, we knew they would hold lots of smaller West Slope cutthroats. We could see the braided channels curving across the bleached piles of rock and tumble into quieter pools of green water, where we knew the big ones would lie waiting for food to bump along the bottom and drop into the feeding holes. Across the slopes on both sides of the river, bare strands of gray lodge pole stood like silent sentinels attesting to a fast moving forest fire that had swept over one rim, dipped into the valley and rose like the branches of a grape vine, as the fire shot up the other slope leaving vast stands of green timber. From where we stood, we picked our campsite.
"It was a good campsite with plenty of feed for the donkeys. Taking a spur trail to the campsite, we crossed a spring-fed creek that meandered through the brush at the base of the mountain to where it opened up into a backwater eddy. Here we would find a sandy, shallow spot to bathe. The conifers spread down the mountainside and marched to the river, which was less than a hundred yards away. A small meadow marked our camping spot next to a dry channel where cottonwood trees sent their roots down to absorb water. We were happy with our discovery. A fire pit lay nearby without a single piece of foil or eggshell to shame some slob packer that had visited the site that season. We set up our camp, tended to the donkeys, ate a hurried early evening meal and charged for the river with fly rods in hand. It was a glorious evening of fishing, and the next day it proved to be even better for every member of our party. I would later look back on that afternoon of our second day in camp and realize, superstitiously or not, that by breaking a thirty-year oath to catch and release fish, I had doomed our party.
Andrew paused. He anticipated the eagerness of the youngsters who quickly raised their hand. Many of the adults were schussing the youngsters through tight lips and whispering to them to put their hands down, but Patrick had said that he could be interrupted at any time, and he rather relished the exchange that he knew his last comment would provoke. He acknowledged a young man who was perhaps in his early teens. "Yes, young man, what is your question? He smiled.
"Teacher, why would you catch a fish and not eat it? We are taught that all bounty is to be killed and shared as equally as possible," said the young man earnestly.
Andrew weighed the question before speaking. "Is it not true that on many of the ranches you allow deer to come down to feed in the pastures unmolested? I have seen coveys of quail hiding in the underbrush next to barns, and yet no one shoots them. I have seen geese come right up on the lawns of some Alliance ranches with their goslings, and yet no one charges out the door to slay them. Why do you suppose this is?
The young man stood up straight. He had been asked a question that hinged on ethics; perhaps even morality, and he wanted to answer it with thoughtfulness. He knew that everyone was listening. He quickly reviewed in his mind what his teachers and the elders would say regarding this very serious dilemma. He knew that the teacher was right. On their farm, they had some pet deer. Although no one had ever said that they could not be killed, he had always accepted that those deer where a part of their lives. They brought enjoyment to all who peered from a window or worked the fields. "I believe," said the young man, that we protect some animals because they remind us of the gifts we receive from Nature. In letting them live, we can study them and appreciate their ways. Maybe in letting them live, we feel less sad when we hunt and give chase to animals that we must kill for food. It is also true, however, that in times of hunger, we would kill our pets to survive," said the young man resolutely.
"Well spoken, young man!" Andrew clapped and the assembly followed him. The young man was both proud and embarrassed and took his seat. "Now, let me ask someone else a follow up question. Living in the past, in the olden days before the dark period, I was never hungry. I had no reason to kill a beautiful trout for my supper. What other motivation would I have to release a fish unharmed? Yes, I will ask a younger person this time. Andrew, in his fondness for little girls having never had one, pointed at a little girl who had been patiently holding her hand up the entire time.
"We catch fish to eat," said the little girl, and the audience laughed. I've caught two fish!" she proudly exclaimed.
"And how do you feel when you catch one and it gets away?" asked Andrew.
The girls shrugged her shoulders and raised her eyebrows. "We just keep fishing," she announced.
"Very good, young lady. "We keep fishing because it is fun. And the ones that got away or the ones that I would release would be out there waiting for me on my next fishing trip. Keep in mind that in this valley alone, we had perhaps fifteen to twenty thousand people. Klamath Falls probably had a population of 50,000 people. Think what would have happened if everyone killed all the fish that they caught!" Andrew took a drink of water. The audience was obviously waiting for him to continue his story.
"By late afternoon, I was exhausted from scrambling over rocks and wading in the water over slippery rocks. I had caught so many beautiful cutthroats from 12 to 16 inches that I was ready to head back for camp and check out the donkeys. Earlier in the day I had agreed with the boys that we would kill one fish each for a side dish that night. The law said that we could catch two fish, provided that they were less than 12 inches in length. This was a law to protect the larger fish that were of spawning age. I asked Wayne to catch one fish for me that evening. I told them to be back before darkness. I reminded them that we were in grizzly country. I told the boys that I would have a fire going and everything ready for dinner.
"At night I picketed the donkeys close to the tents. Our campfire pit was no more than forty or fifty feet from some of the tents, but our meal preparation area was over a hundred yards away. At night we would hoist all the panniers holding food up into a tree. Before it got dark, I had the lantern ready, as well as my flashlight. All the food that we would need that evening I had organized and lay out in the grass. I had built a small fire pit and had hot coals ready as evening approached. On a rock I had salt and lemon-pepper, along with foil, ready for the fish. Wrapped in foil, we would put them on the coals for no more than five minutes. When I could no longer see steam escaping from the foil, I knew they would be ready. As it grew darker, I became worried. The boys had not returned. They had been giving clear instructions to fish together playing leapfrog over the best water. I had also told them to work back close to camp as the sun set. That way they could re-fish a good run at dusk, which was close to the campsite. Every member of the party carried a pepper spray canister on his belt for protection against bears. Turning on my flashlight, I went looking for my canister. I had taken off my wet pants when I had returned to camp and changed into a pair of sweat pants, as the evening chill set in quickly once the sun set. I found the wet pants where I had left them hanging from a small pine tree. I pulled out the belt, threaded the belt through the holster loops and adjusted it to my waist.
I had read a number of books on grizzly attacks in North America, and although they had not been required reading for trekking into the wilderness, it seemed prudent that I should review the attacks and killings before I ventured into the grizzly country with five young men. As darkness descended I became more worried, although in truth I knew exactly what was transpiring out on the river. These young men were doing exactly what I had done to my family so many times. They were catching fish, lots of fish, and they all waited for someone else to make the decision to return to camp. How far had they advanced up the river? It had taken me at least thirty minutes to return to camp, and they were still charging up the river long after I had retreated to camp. I shouted a number of times. I strained to listen for a reply. Growing hoarse, I sat down on a fallen log and waited. After another ten minutes had past, I noticed that my two donkeys had quit grazing. Side by side they were facing the same direction and their ears were straight up in the air.
I could hear the muffled sounds of someone approaching. Shining my light between the trees, I watched as Brad and Dan came into the aura of my flashlight. "Where in the hell have you guys been? Where are the others?"
Brad, who was the smaller of the two boys, spoke up immediately. His face, flushed from running in the dark, showed no emotion. Dan, on the other hand was clearly in shock. He just stood there waiting for Brad to tell all that he knew. "Those other guys crossed the river at a shallow spot. We yelled to them that we had better head back. They yelled back that they were just going to go around a bend and that they would only be a few minutes. It was already getting dark. Wayne came up behind us and told us that we would catch hell for being so late. He had been fishing a side channel and really had got into a pod of fish. I pointed to where the other guys had crossed the river. He stood there whistling really loud, but it was at least seventy or eighty yards to where the river bent ninety degrees and disappeared behind a canopy of trees. We could barely hear a yell back from the other guys, and then we realized that we were hearing screams. Andrew, they were really bad screams."
Dan quietly interrupted. "Andrew, we think something horrible has happened. Wayne told us to head back to camp. We watched him wade across the river. He put down his rod and took out the bear spray. He walked around the bend very slowly, and just as we were about to leave..." Dan trembled and his voice trailed off.
Andrew, we saw a body float around the bend and get hung up on some rocks," continued Brad. "We hesitated a moment and than we charged into the water. Dan slipped in the water and lost his rod. We were half way across when we heard Wayne yell out. He said, 'Go back and get help! Go back, now!" We took off running, but we fell so many times in the dark that we missed the trail to camp. What are we going to do for help?"
"I can't say I jumped to action. Nausea swept over me. I kept thinking of what I was going to say to one or more sets of parents. It was my fault, and I knew that it would haunt me the rest of my life, but I also knew that we had to act and not waste any time. "Brad get a couple of flashlights from the tents, and throw those pack saddles on the donkeys. Don't forget to put on their blankets first. I'll cinch them up when you are finished. Dan, you're going to stay in camp--no arguments! Clean up all this food and pull it up in the tree. Get your flashlight first. After you get all the food secure, I want you to walk up the slope. Follow the trail up river about two hundred yards and find a climbing tree up on the slope. Be sure you have an angle where you can see up the valley to where you guys were last fishing. Take some rope with you and tie yourself to a limb. You will probably be up there all night. Don't come down until one of us finds you in the morning. Now, this is important. Look for us along the river. I will signal you with my flashlight. I want you to signal back so we can see your position."
"How should I signal?"
"Just turn your flashlight on every ten minutes until you see us flash back at you. Give us about thirty minutes before you signal. Later, when we are on our way back. I'll signal you. When you signal back, I'll flash my light x-number of times to tell you how many people in our party. Stay in the tree until we come for you."
"Ok," Dan replied.
"Dan, "if you believe in God, say some prayers for us. When we get to the crossing, I'll signal you one more time."
"I left Dan cleaning up the camp food and returned to Brad. He had the donkeys saddled and had the cinches and straps ready to cinch up. "How many flashlights do you have?"
"Three."
"Good, dump everything out of the panniers but rope, one of those stoves, some extra clothes, particularly jackets and a sleeping bag. I'll find the first aide kit and matches." I kept thinking that I was forgetting something. I asked Brad but he just stared at me. And then it came to me. It was dark and we would need torches. While I cinched up the donkeys, Brad packed the container of white gas, and he threw in some pine bough branches. The donkeys did not like to travel in the darkness, and they would periodically stop and survey the darkness. After a while a nearly full moon crested the mountains. Looking back to camp I could barely discern the area I had asked Dan to climb a tree. I signaled with my headlamp. Within seconds, Dan had signaled back. The pinpoint of light blinked high up on the mountain, far above the trail I was sure. He had picked a good vantage point. In another fifteen minutes we came to the crossing, and I signaled Dan one more time.
"I had Brad soak the pine boughs with white gas. I tried to get the donkeys to cross, but they refused. Banjo jumped away from the water and it was all I could do to hold on to him. At that moment I realized that it wasn't the white gas that I was trying to remember to bring. I had forgot the hobbles! Quickly, I pulled the rope out and made a makeshift hobble for both donkeys. I told Brad to stay with the donkeys, and than I tied a rope from Buddy's saddletree to form a loop about two feet from the ground. I told Brad that if he heard a bear, he should use the loop to climb up on the packsaddle. No record exists of a bear charging a man on horseback. I wasn't sure that applied to donkeys, but I wasn't going to share that with Brad.
Standing in the shallow water, I yelled out to what I hoped would be more than one survivor. "Hello," I yelled out. "Is anyone over there?" I could hear a faint voice over the murmur of the running water. I checked that I had the other flashlight in my hip pocket. I had a coil of rope around my neck. I lit one of the torches and made my way to the other shore. I moved up the bank towards the bend in the river. My eyes strained to see any movement in the water. It was light enough from the full moon that I was sure that I could see no body or bears in the shallow water ahead. I yelled again.
"Andrew! Scott and I are in a tree. Marvin's dead. He was killed by a sow and her two yearling cubs. Scott was mauled, but he played dead. He keeps passing out on me. I've got him tied down with his belt and mine. He is in really bad shape. Wait, wait! He says he has been playing dead because he thought I was a bear. Andrew, I think he is delirious. He just passed out again. I can feel his pulse"
"Wayne, are the bears nearby?"
"I haven't seen them for maybe an hour. They dragged Wayne's body into the trees down by the bend. Where are you?"
"I am about 20 yards from the bend. If I go around the bend rather than through the trees, how much shoreline will I have?"
"It's about 10 yards at the bend from the shoreline to the trees," yelled back Wayne. From the bend, the shoreline is gravel and rock and it gets wider and wider. I am in a tree about thirty yards from the bend. I can barely see your torch from here."
"Wayne, I am going to light the other torch and come and get you. If anything happens, stay in the tree. Brad is across the river with the donkeys, and Dan is up in a tree on the mountainside above the camp."
I lit the second torch. My hands were trembling so badly that the two torches flamed up on every involuntary shake. I held my breath when I passed the bend. Wayne shouted out his position and I advanced to the tree. It was a fully expanded tree with branches nearly to the base. Although grizzly rarely climb a tree after a human, unlike the brown bear that pursued a young woman ranger to the top of a tree where she plunged to her death, there have been reported instances when grizzly cubs climbed fairly high after their prey before they turned around and returned to the earth. Wayne had picked a good tree. Moving up the height of the tree, the branches became further apart and open. I climbed up a ways and then tossed up the rope. I told Wayne to tie a bowline knot around Scott under his armpits. I had him first pass the rope over the branch above him. I tied the other end in a bowline under my arms. In this manner, Wayne lowered Scott down while the weight of Scott pulled me slowly up the tree. By the time Scott was close to the ground, Wayne was already there to pull him free of the branches and untie the knot. I worked my way to the ground, untied the rope from under my shoulders, wrapped it around my neck and looked at Scott. He choked and moaned, and we realized that he slowly was returning to consciousness. I could see terrible wounds across his back extending across his buttocks and down his left leg. He had lost a lot of blood, but we had to move him immediately across the river. I knew that within yards of us, Marvin's body lay half buried by forest duff and decayed bark. We had no time to waste.
I had tossed the two torches on the ground, but only one was still lit. I broke off a branch from the tree and lit it from the other torch. Wayne and I carried Scott in the two-man carry position. We bent down and each picked up a torch and made our way in a straight line through the trees to the crossing point. Brad soared in my admiration when we saw the bon fire he had started across the river. We could see the two donkeys tied to a drift log, and we could see Brad scurrying around building the fire higher. When he saw us, he came rushing out to help us. When we laid Scott by the fire, we could hear woofing and coughing in the trees on the other side. The sow and her cubs had returned to protect their prize. I asked Brad if he had signaled Dan, certain that he had. He said yes, and I suppose the fire told Dan that we would stay put for the night. The two young men gathered firewood for hours while I administered first aid to Scott.
He was badly wounded. The slash across his neck had just missed his artery. His scalp was laid bare above his left ear, which had been ripped off. His wrists were mangled where he had protected his neck. From his shoulders to his thigh, he had lacerations and puncture wounds, and I was sure that one of his ankles had been broken when the sow or one of her cubs had dragged him. Apparently, Wayne had rounded the bend to see the sow and her cubs feeding on Marvin's body out in the shallows. Scott lay on the boulder-strewn beach playing dead not twenty yards from the bears' attack on Marvin, when he had ran out into the river to save himself. Seeing Wayne round the bend, the sow launched a false charge. Wayne held his ground with his canister ready to fire. He had been ready to let loose a spray of cyan pepper when the sow veered off and barked at him. The two cubs dashed behind their mother. Wayne turned his head slightly from the sow's gaze and slowly walked towards Scott. He had already picked his escape tree. Reaching Scott, he bent down to talk to Scott, and then he made his first mistake.
From his crouched position over Scott, he looked up and made eye contact with the sow, and she charged. When she was twenty feet from Wayne, he pulled the trigger and enveloped her with a cloud of pepper. She stopped her charge, coughed, shook her head and than charged again. This time she was ten feet away when Wayne pulled the trigger again. She was moving so fast she charged into the two men, stumbled over them, and then ran back to her cubs. Out of range of the pepper spray, she and her two cubs paced back and forth between the two men and the body of Marvin. Scott was conscious, and he pulled out his canister, while Wayne dragged him towards the tree. He hoisted Scott up to the first branch, when one of the cubs charged. This time he sprayed too soon and found little of the pepper rushed out from the nozzle, but Scott was ready and emptied his canister, never thinking to pull back and save some pepper for later. The two men worked their way up into the tree as darkness fell.
We decided to sleep in shifts, but in truth no one slept. We crouched near the fire. Buddy and Banjo stared across the river with the ears erect all night long. At false dawn, I remembered to signal Dan. He was awake in his tree and signaled back. I reported the death of one of our group with five separate flashes. Suddenly, we fell silent as the entire western skyline grew brighter and brighter. Confused, we turned and looked Eastward as the first glow of dawn rose up the backside of the mountain. It was true. The unthinkable had happened. One of our western cities had been incinerated. We said very little. Each of us pondered the fate of our families, regardless of where they lived. At daybreak we saw no signs of the bears across the river. I re-administered Scott's wounds. I re-positioned the dangling scalp and wrapped his entire head in a triangular bandage. Throughout the night he had been in shock. We placed him in the sleeping bag, and when he was conscious, I gave him water and some aspirin. We wasted no time preparing to leave. While we prepared to leave, Brad kept the fire roaring. To my great surprise and relief, Brad had tossed the ax and saw back into the pack the night before. We quickly began fashioning a travois using the rope and the sleeping bag as a litter. Using clove hitches, half hitches, square knots and grannies, we had Scott tied onto the travois in a little less than two hours. Making our way back to camp, I placed Wayne out in front with my canister of bear spray while I led Buddy. We had lashed the travois to Buddy, and Banjo was left free to follow, but he did not like walking behind the travois and would dart out to the side of Buddy any chance that he got. Behind us Brad and Dan followed with pepper spray in hand. "Andrew, they're following us. I spotted them twice now so I am not mistaken."
"How far back," I asked.
"Maybe a quarter of a mile or less."
"Wayne, take control of Banjo. If they close the distance, I want to close up in a semi-circle and get in a tight group. Wayne, I want you on my right flank, and Brad I want you on my left flank. Remember what you learned last night. Don't waste spray on a false charge. Don't fire your canister until I give you the order. They can veer off in a false charge ten feet away. We'll fire at 20 feet!
Twenty minutes later they had circled around us and broke all the rules of engagement between grizzly bears and humans. Not only did they not retreat from humans after being sprayed heavily with pepper the previous day, but now the sow and her cubs launched a frontal charge without warning. They covered sixty yards in a manner of seconds. Fast enough to take down a running elk in short distances, they charged straight at us. Brad had leapt to the front and stood with Wayne. Banjo jumped out of Wayne's grasp and charged the bears. He started bucking and kicking up his rear legs with forceful kicks at the charging bears when they were twenty yards away. And than his moment of bravado was followed by a hasty retreat to the rear. Distracted the sow and her two cubs pulled up momentarily thirty or forty feet away. Wayne and Brad held the canisters in front of them with their arms fully extended. The sow stood on her hind legs, and then she dropped back to all four legs, took a couple of hops and charged.
"Not yet! Not yet! Fire!" Both canisters opened up with a green cloud of pepper. The sky had turned dark, and with the shifting fog of green we could see the three grizzlies running into a willow thicket towards the river. Surprisingly, Buddy had held his ground. I looked behind us to see Banjo running towards us. He lunged side-to-side kicking his rear legs into the air like a triumphant warrior. It was the first and only time that we laughed as we retreated from the wilderness.
We found camp and re-united with Dan. He was stiff and sore having spent a sleepless night straddling a tree branch. We filled him in with the passing events and broke camp without eating. By the time we had reached the main trail, we could see a half a dozen outfitters leading their clients and trains out of the mountain. Soft ash was falling from the darkening sky. One large party passed us without saying a word. Another party cursed us as they tried to pass. We were holding traffic up. Pulling the travois, Buddy was slow and steady on the trail. Hundreds of feet up the side of the mountain, it was impossible for anyone to pass. One foot over the edge, and riders would plunge to their deaths. Twice the downhill side of the travois slipped over the edge. Brad followed behind me, and each time the tree branch would slip off the trail, he would yell out an alarm, and I would struggle with Buddy to pull he and Scott from the abyss. Reaching a bend a wide spot in the trail, we pulled over to rest and calm our nerves. The raining ash unnerved us. Finally, two rangers on horseback over took us. I told them of the rogue bears and that later travelers who were making their way from deeper in the interior should be protected.
The lead ranger leaned across the saddle horn and pushed his baseball cap back. His eyes were red, no doubt from the ash, and his sullen demeanor had more the look of a mortician or for that matter a corpse than a government employee who had taken a sworn oath to protect people when they were hurt or lost. "Mister, I don't know how to respond. Before our satellite communication dropped, we had reports of World War III. Washington has been obliterated, as well as New York. You saw the sky over Seattle early this morning. We can't say for sure, but we think that our government has collapsed. There is no emergency broadcasting system. It is silent out there, and we are all heading home to our families. I wish you the best of luck, especially your young man in the travois." He clicked his tongue, spurred his horse gently and passed us. Behind the two rangers another pack team had caught up with us so we let them pass. One of their clients was a lady. She kept repeating, "God is good. God will guide us through evil times." She made no eye contact with any of us, and we watched the big Belgian mules sway up the trail kicking up fresh dirt to meet the falling ash. We covered our mouths with scarves and followed the passing group. Soon they disappeared in front of us.
We knew that we had escaped the jaws of death from the sow and her two cubs. What we didn't know was that fate and just plain bad luck would overtake us high in the mountains. It defied logic. It went beyond bad luck, and it suggested that evil had spread throughout the land in the demonic form of falling ash. I have no idea what took place on the trail ahead of us. We knew we were in trouble when we heard the pounding hooves of frightened mules charging back down the trail. We froze. We had a steep cliff that plunged down the mountain to the gorge below. On the uphill side, the slope was so steep that it would be difficult to scramble to safety without a root or a low-lying bush to grab. Wayne let go of Banjo's lead rope. Seeing the charging mules ahead, Banjo leapt up the side of the mountain splaying rock and dirt in all directions. Banjo was in four-wheel drive. His haunches dug into the side of the mountain and he cleared the trail. Wayne jumped up and grabbed his tail, dug in with his boots and lunged for a bush ten feet above the trail. I must confess that I was not as quick to action. I threw up my arms and screamed at the charging horses, and then I dropped over the edge. The lead mule slammed into Buddy and they both veered off the cliff in slow motion. I saw it all as I slid on my belly clawing the dirt that ripped at my fingernails. Buddy and the mule turned over and over until they dropped off a rock shelf and fell a hundred feet to their deaths. I never saw the travois or Scott. Maybe I had refused to see Scott plunge off the side of the cliff. Maybe I just blocked it out of my mind. I had come to a rest just above the rock shelf. I called out for Brad, but I had no answer. Wayne called out to me and told me not to move.
Banjo had slid down the trail and slammed into the second charging mule. Apparently the blow or collision had saved Banjo's life because the second mule just stepped off into space and disappeared to my left. I never saw it. Wayne had held onto the bush until the melee had settled. A number of mules had stumbled and fallen to the ground. Some of the mules had saved themselves by climbing a few feet up the side of the cliff. Wayne said the bush he was holding pulled free from the earth, and he slid down right next to a shaking mule. Wayne went from mule to mule until he and Dan had gathered up enough rope so that Wayne could scale down the cliff and help me. I tied the rope under my arms, and Wayne worked his way back up to the trail and between the two of us I was able to work my way back, although I had to stop a number of times to catch my breath. I hate to admit it but I was going into shock. I was trembling so bad Dan had to step up and help me remove the rope. The mules stood eerily calm after such a disaster. Maybe they too were in shock, or maybe they had overcome their panic and fear and stood patiently waiting for someone to lead them away from death. At any rate, I was amazed at their calmness, since I had to roll myself up on the trail directly between hooves the size of a catcher's mitt. Once I had caught my breath and controlled my trembling, I asked about Brad.
Wayne said, "It's bad Andrew. When the first mule slammed into Buddy, I saw Brad reach out to Scott as the travois slipped off the trail. It whipped sideways in the air and I think one of the poles slammed into Brad's chin, and he too slipped off the edge of the cliff. He dropped straight down a hundred feet. I've already spotted his body. He didn't go over the edge into the gorge."
"Show me," I said. We walked down the trail a few feet and peered over the edge. Brad's twisted body could be seen below. His legs were splayed apart with one of his legs twisted backwards. His head, barely visible, was wedged between two jagged rocks.
"I'll go down and see if he is alive,' said Wayne.
I placed my hand on Wayne's shoulder. "No. He is dead. I won't risk another life. It's too risky. And if he is still alive, I do not have the strength to help you bring him back. He was a brave man, but he is gone, and we need to survive." We picked two mules to ride and Banjo followed us. When we reached the trailhead, Wayne and I loaded Banjo into the trailer along with a small mule that seemed to have called Banjo his brother. When we got to Hungry Horse, a steady stream of vacationers from Glacier National Park crawled down the highway. We pulled in with the rest. When we got to Missoula, Wayne said goodbye. He returned to Bozeman where he had a sweetheart. It was a strange parting. We shook hands and said nothing. In fact we had said nothing during the entire drive back to Missoula. The last I saw of him was when he flagged down a car heading east. I stayed with Dan by the interstate while he held out a sign for Las Vegas. I family stopped. They were headed in that direction. I waved goodbye and then I returned home to my family.
In eight months the Black Ebola ravished Montana. I lost my wife and two children. I turned Banjo loose and headed for Northern California to see if any of my family had survived. By the time I reached Interstate 84 and the Dalles, I was sickened by what I saw. I turned off at Highway 197 and found myself at the guard station at Collier Park. Jake Simons interviewed me, and a few days later I was part of the Alliance.
"Well, that's my story, and as the saying goes, I'm sticking to it. I would like to call it a night. Lance and I will say our goodbyes in the morning." Many of the elders gathered around Andrew as he stood up and stretched. They reached out and laid hands on him. Some murmured words of encouragement. Others just gave him a hug. He was the teacher, and he was exhausted from telling his story.